Psy201 Week 1 Reflection

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Over a period of six weeks, I embarked on a personal study to discover the effectiveness

of the meditative practice of mindfulness on creating real and lasting change in relation to

negative thinking. I became aware that I would ruminate pessimistic thoughts of situations from

the past, current issues, and potential future problems. Although this practice of mulling over

stressful situations, both real and imagined, had a limited repertoire, they would swirl around in

my head like a revolving door. These scenarios would become more frequent and last longer as

my level of stress rose or my anger was stirred by adverse circumstances I could not control.

Week one began on Monday, September 29, 2014. I dedicated the entire seven …show more content…

No intervention was used to stop ruminating, I simply kept count of the instances that I

was aware of obsessive thoughts. To keep the count accurate, I utilized an application on my

iPhone called, Karma Jar. The program was developed based on the practice of a Buddhist

monk who would place a white stone in a glass jar when he had positive thoughts, and dark

stones in the jar when he experienced negative thinking. As the jar filled up, I could visually

compare and count the number of times when ruminating would take over my attention.

Looking at a jar full of dark stones at the end of every day that first week allowed me to see the

scope of the problem. By the end of the week, I had endured 144 incidents of ruminating.

In spite of being overwhelmed by the severity of my problem with rumination, I felt

extremely motivated to change, and enthusiastically began the mindfulness phase of the study.

The first few hours of implementing the intervention seemed difficult and tedious, but I was

quickly surprised at how much better I got in a very short space of time.

The Practice and Study of Mindfulness

I discovered that by not judging the thoughts, and the anxiety or depression they …show more content…

As the first mindfulness week progressed and I counted a dramatic drop in the number of

ruminating interludes. I also noticed that I was learning to quickly disengage from ruminative

thought patterns. My awareness of the onset of an episode became sharper, allowing me to have

increasingly longer periods of time in between ruminating thoughts. This respite from self-

inflicted torment, and the liberating of my brain to flourish in more constructive thoughts, was

the best reward I could have received.

The remaining observation weeks continued to show a sharp decline in ruminative

thinking with as few as three per day in the final week. The Oxford study concludes that,

“rumination occurs to some extent as a common human experience, but becomes particularly

dysfunctional when it is excessive and uncontrollable. The idea is that greater skill in mindful

awareness, either naturally occurring or cultivated in meditation practices, does not mean that

people do not ruminate, but that they are better at noticing it when it occurs, so that they

subsequently can disengage from it” (Raes, Williams 2010).

Outcome

What the Oxford study discovered corresponds to my own personal

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