In the blink of an eye, your life could take a terrible turn. Your mind races, your heart palpitates so fast you can hear it, you are shaking, sweaty, what is happening! That once confident, independent, enterprising woman could not even think straight, buckling to the ground, curled in a ball like a small child in the fetal position. Twelve hours ago, you were convinced that you were living your last night on earth. However, after hours of tests and monitors, the doctors found nothing. I experienced my first panic attack. My life was like a prison, four walls and no escape from the torture that my mind would go through. The constant inner critic was so loud in my head “This is your miserable life now “, you are a loser”, and these
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I was having severe panic attacks at least three to four times a day. I would sit in the dark closet crying begging God to help me, begging him to tell me what I had done that I was being punished for. “Please God tell me why I am being punished, please help me”!
I called my mom every day to come and take me to the emergency room. I thought I was having a heart attack or a stroke, my face becomes flush, my hands tremble, I can’t breathe I know I am having a heart attack ,why won’t anyone help me . I was on my knees begging for help, screaming why me, why is this happening. Repeatedly I would go to the emergency room begging the doctors for help, “please let me feel better”, please help me I’m dying.” The Dr. would say you are having another panic attack. I was so embarrassed. I had been in the emergency so many times, I eventually stopped going. I couldn’t drive anymore ,couldn’t leave the house and couldn’t be alone , I had developed acute agoraphobia I spent my days crying and feeling like I was losing my mind. I was depressed to the point I would not eat, would not shower for days, and I felt like my life would never be the same again.
It was a terrible time in my life. Something had to change, and it did eventually; the
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As of today, I have a high “B” in my class, and I kept my commitment to myself.
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The more I did the class and the journals the more and more I noticed a change in myself.
I was feeling confident and excited about this new journey in my life; I started to find myself again and started to feel like I had a purpose. When I first started the class I had so much negative self-talk my inner critic would get the best of me “I can’t do this”, “I am not smart enough”, I would cause myself anxiety from being so worried about how I would do on my class work. This book On Course really changed my life, the more I read the more I felt this healing process with in me, something I honestly have not felt that in two years of counseling, it was different writing your feelings down and visually seeing it on paper. I felt encouraged and excited to learn more. This class has taught me self-confidence, commitment and when you think positive, your life will be positive. I feel I can do anything in life and I feel like On Course has helped me with some excellent life skills that will make me successful in the
After taking this class, it would be impossible to see things, specially people or myself, the same way. Whether or not the intention of the class is to provide self-improvement information, it would be impossible for the student to ignore the issues, disorders, etc., identified throughout this fast-paced plethora of information. Of course what the student decides to retains is obviously subjective; which lead us to the application of the stress and health profiles. After the completion of the scales provided, and the grading associated, it would be hard not to realize how we can better our lives, if we make minor adjustments in our way of life. I for one, personalized a large part of this information, something I probably would not have been able to do, at least at the same level, back when I was a young adult.
One rather beautiful day I head down to the building fields of Uruk with my only son Urnabe. He is 14 and he is turning out to be a skilled mason or at least better than his old man. When we get there I see that Binfem was already waiting for me.
I’ve never been the type of person to buy into, or even read, many self-help books; however, I really appreciated reading this book. The few previous experiences I’ve had with them seemed very hard to apply to my life. What I think this book did differently was show that although you won’t see results right away, in whatever it is you do, if you do the little things right (or wrong) every day, you will see positive (or negative) results over time. I think one of the most powerful moments of the book was when he mentioned how many people today want to go from planting, directly to harvesting, instead of planting, cultivating, and then harvesting. I see this in my own life as a referee in Junior hockey. I feel as if I am always striving for that level, and sometimes want to be working that next level, even if I am not ready for it. This example of not
First Things First, grab the saw his antibiotics are wearing off. “We have to saw off your right leg, Mr. Daws I’m very sorry for your loss.” He replied, “It’s a whole lot better than dying that's for sure I’ll just have to adjust.” This was the usual part of the job so it really didn’t affect me at the time, but it surely would come back to haunt me in the end.
Everything was always bleak, I forced people away, doing group projects solo, ignoring the attempts of conversation. I knew that it was destructive, but at the same time didn’t care. Eventually, after months of anxiety induced nausea and vomiting I went to a general family doctor. This was both a good step forward and a bad choice, good in that I was finally seeking help, but bad in that I didn’t seek a proper specialist. After 15 minutes I walked out with a script feeling no better that
I really learned a great deal of information from this course. A lot of the information helped me to understand myself as well as others. I must admit that I do see certain situations and circumstances a little different now. I understand some of the things my children are going through in life right now a little better. This course has really enlighten me about a lot things in my life at this point. I will use this same information to help me empathize and help my students as a school counselor. I will be able to recognize the types of developmental issues my students may be faced with and provide the correct intervention plan to help them succeed in academically.
Envision that you're laying in a hospital bed hooked up to numerous machines, knowing that your life is ending. Nurses and doctors come in often to check in on you, yet they know nothing they can do to keep you alive. You’re tired and feeling the effects of the many drugs you’ve been put on to control the pain, breathing is hard and you don’t enjoy food like you used to. Doctors have told you there is no chance of survival and you will die very soon. The only thing that matters now is when you die.
This has been an informative lesson and a wonderful class. I have learned so much about therapy and myself. I am looking forward to working with others and practicing the skills I have learned throughout this course.
Squatting on the ground, I was weeping. I couldn’t see anything, not even my hand although it was not far from me. I made my eyes widely open to make sure if my eyes went blind or not. When it was around 8pm, I started looking for the window. Touching my hands on the corners of the room, I finally found it. I used up all my energy opening the window, but it was covered with hard dust and it was rigid. I fell down, and cried a lot. I couldn’t sleep throughout the whole night, because I was hungry and thirsty. In addition to this, it was cold in the middle of that night. I was shivering and coughing persistently. Time passed, and it was early in the morning, but nothing
Detailed analysis shows that virtually always, the first panic attack occurred in a time of stress increased when we were physically exhausted, sick, in constant strife to work or home, when we felt that more can not handle stresses, and effort. Often the first attack occurs a few days or weeks after birth, the period of mourning after the loss of a loved one, after the divorce, in a state of hangover, during withdrawal from alcohol or drugs, and the like. When we feel satisfied, safe, relaxed, and when we are not exposed to great stress, panic attacks are
Though my symptoms for agoraphobia started well before my first grade year, that day in particular gave me a glimpse of what my life was going to be like. I was able to see for a short moment in time what sort of struggles I was going to face as I grew older. Through everyone’s perspective I was considered lazy. I always had a terrible excuse as to why I could not go outside and play with the other children, be it at school or home.It appeared as though I wanted to stay in the house and do nothing, but what the adults were not seeing is the sad child that sat in the window and cried while she watched the other children play. These little instances got worse throughout my life and I seldom wanted to play with the other children. In high school I missed a lot of days and because of this my grades suffered immensely. It seemed like my teachers and counselors knew what was happening, but non reached out. This created another hardship and hurdle for me to overcome. Some teachers would ask me why I would fail my tests, but yet when asked the very same questions 1 on 1, I would pass. The reason for this is because my peers caused me a great deal of
When I first started this course, I was a little concerned that I would have problems. Not on the academics, but more on the personal level. I’ve always been a bit on the shy side, but I would always go out of my way to help someone in need. The first major experience I have had with the course is that I have learned to stop pretending to be someone I am not. God made me exactly as He saw fit to create me, so why would I want to change His vision He has for me?
I understand my styles and behaviors better now. Too bad I didn’t take this course earlier in life. Understanding myself will help me understand other people better I believe. That will be helpful concidering the profession I intend to have.
This course opened my eyes to the importance of dialogue in ways that I had not previously considered. I did not know in counseling you should only talk 30 percent of the time and that the remaining 70 percent should be the counselee’s time to talk. My typical counseling sessions in the past were about 50/50 dialogue. I thought that the counselee needed my opinion. A majority of my sessions included this amount of dialogue, which I am now understanding was not helpful to those people. Even though several people did have great results due to our sessions, they will looked to me in the future for more answers to various problems. This made the counseling relationship more dependent on my advice rather than them talking out their problem
In terms of Personal Development I feel that the course has helped me to develop the skills I need to improve my grades, and to build my confidence.