Fear Of Rejection Research Paper

Dealing with my fear of rejection has kept from pursuing certain goals and opportunities I had for myself. Knowing that I have this fear help me realize that I should try to learn from it and conquer at the end. The first I tried facing my fear was I applied for high school. I did not know what high school I should attend but, I knew that I did want to go to my base school. One day I was discussing with about which high schools I should apply for. He started telling me about his high school, JDC early college high school. He told me the program allows to earn high school and college credits at the same time. When you come into the school for the first two years they will start off with honors core classes, and then the final two years will be college

class. He concluded by stating that “at the end of the program you should graduate with a high school diploma and 60 college credits. The 60 college credits will allow you to enter a university as junior instead of a freshman.” After hearing everything about the program, I decided that this was the high school was a great opportunity and I should try and apply. I later submitted my application awaiting my acceptance.

After applying I became very nervous, scared and anxious because I was determined to get accepted into the school. The possibility of getting rejected would damage my self-confidence and bring down my motivation a great amount. A month later a letter in the mail came for me. The letter came from the school and they made their decision. They rejected my application and wished me luck in my future endeavors. I was hurt and disappointment in myself for not getting in the school. However, I stayed positive and held my high so when another opportunity came I would try harder and work smarter. After my 8th grade promotion, I received a call from the early college high school and they informed that they had a spot for me. I was excited to hear the good news and immediately accepted their acceptance. I was proud of myself for staying positive and motivated. I used the same motivation I had to apply for internships last summer. I applied for a Duke research internship for the summer, however, I did not accept. I remember how staying positive, motivated, and determined to help me get into early college so, I applied for another internship called NCCDI youth

leadership. The internship dealt with high school junior working at local non-profit community development centers. The program also held forums that taught us how to become a great leader and give a great contribution to our community. This was a great opportunity that could not be passed up. After submitting my application, two weeks later I received an email congratulating me on my acceptance. The program assigned to a local non-profit organization called “The Scrap Exchange.” Their mission is to provide jobs for people who cannot seek employment elsewhere due to their background history. They also promote and support the local arts, creativity, and building a community through reuse. Being there I able learn how to operate a retail store, sit in executive meetings, and document the company’s finances. They even put me in charge of a project. The project was to launch the new thrift store that they were developing. The project included me sorting out clothing donations that is fitable for the thrift store, setting up shelves and racks, and analyzing prices for the clothing. Overall it was a great experience and inspired to one day start my own non-profit. Although I am still dealing my fear of rejection today, I use the motivation and determination I have to conquer my fear and take advantage of the opportunities that I come across.