Violin Goals

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An important part of becoming an adult consists of making decisions for oneself and considering how said decisions can affect one’s future. Deliberately choosing not to continue the violin in high school was the beginning of these kinds of decisions for me. It was the first time I stopped to reflect on what I wanted and the outcomes of my options.

My school year as an eighth grader was coming to an end, and soon high school would begin. But before that could happen, I had to choose whether to keep going with orchestra classes and violin lessons. I felt conflicted; I had been assigned the instrument in third grade--as is custom within my school system--and had learned how to play through the rest of elementary and middle school, but I struggled …show more content…

Can I see myself playing the violin in high school, in college, as part of a career? Are performing on stage, conducting an orchestra of my own, or teaching the violin goals that I truly want to aspire …show more content…

I could not see myself dedicating a lot of time to practicing in hopes of performing professionally one day. It wasn’t as though I hated the instrument; I enjoyed playing it for the sake of playing it. I loved to pull out my violin, hold it like a guitar, and pluck it pizzicato style when my cousins came to visit. It was rewarding to hear a song on the radio and just feel it out on the violin without sheet music. I was excited to have figured out how to employ vibrato and to use my left hand to jump to higher notes. But playing the violin for school began to feel like a chore. I didn’t feel the same spark in orchestra class that I felt when I would finally make sense of a new concept in algebra, when I attacked a volleyball just right, or when I’d immerse myself in the world of a fascinating book.

As I thought about it more, the decision became clearer. I did not want to be half-heartedly stuck with something that I was not passionate about when I could use that time to try new things or develop other disciplines or skills that I felt were more worthwhile. Back then, it was impossible to accurately predict whether or not I was making the best decision. A person does not know if a decision is right or wrong until he can look back on it later. He can only choose the option that he believes in the

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