As I got older I felt like I had accomplished a lot in my life. I owned my home, car, R.V., boat and always had all my bills paid on time. I did however land myself in a career that I did not enjoy; I was miserable and I acted like it. I was never at home and when I did get the chance to be at home I was tired and cranky. My family was suffering the consequences of me working all the time. Even though I felt successful because of my assets, I was far from feeling prosperous because I was always working. I wanted to change careers so I could spend more time with my family, but I was scared of change and feared losing everything I had worked so hard to get. On May 21, 2014 my life changed forever. While at work I got a call from my daughter, she was screaming into the phone so loud I could barely make out what she was saying. “Honey slow down” I said, what is wrong? There was no mistaking the words I heard come from her mouth the second time “Mom, I’m scared! Our house is on fire!” The next couple of weeks were rough, but I realized that losing everything I owned was one of the best things to ever happen to me. It taught me how strong and resourceful I am which gave me the confidence to change my life.
I drove home as fast as I could just to watch everything I had worked for turn to ash. I remember feeling like my stomach was twisted in knots as I ran out of the office door, jumped into my car and drove home, I’m sure I was breaking some speed limits, but I didn’t care. All I could think about was getting to my children and my home. As I turned onto my street I saw fire trucks with their lights flashing and hoses running everywhere, there was even a news crew taking video and pictures. As I got closer I could see f...
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...es away in misery again. This was when my husband learned about how I wanted to work in radiography because it combine my three favorite subjects; science, math and art. We moved back to Fort Smith and I enrolled in college and started by the fall of 2015.
During one of the most chaotic points in my life, I discovered I could stand up and deal with a disastrous situation on my own. This made me feel like a completely different person; I felt like a person that was capable of anything and made changes in my life. Today my family and I are much happier. Losing everything I owned was not the worst thing to happen to me. I learned what was really important and discover new things about myself. I found my inner strength, discovered how enterprising I am and gained the confidence I needed to change my life for the better. I lost a whole lot, but I gained so much more.
I began to go to therapy, I found healthy patterns of taking care of myself, safe ways to take risks, I found communities I belonged in, and the list could go on. After therapy had gone on for awhile, my psychologist and I found it in my best interest to have a psychiatric support/service animal, which soon after she advised and I garnered all the paperwork necessary to have her with me wherever I may wish or need, I did. If you're wondering if I named her what you're thinking, you bet I did, her name is Kuroi. Adopting Kuroi was the biggest positive change in my life, I noticed after that living with depression, with anxiety, with bipolar disorder, with this long list of problems going on inside my mind constantly, that life isn't so awful all the
When my father lost his job, our family lost many of the comforts that we once took for granted due to a reduced income. Money became a very large issue and with it came many limitations on wants and desires that were so accessible before my father lost his job. Furthermore, the loss of his job brought about immense shame for my father. Yet, rather than become embarrassed over my father losing his job and sad due to the fact that I could no longer have as many material possessions, I came to accept the different lifestyle. By letting go and accepting, the room was made for new experiences, joys, understandings, and lessons.
Feeling responsible for situations out of my control was difficult. My grades were awful, it was impossible to focus on anything. I could hardly sleep at night with the amounts of stress I was under. Knowing that my father was an alcoholic with bi-polar disorder opened me up to a new world. I was exposed to so much more than the average kid, especially when he would bring me to the Alcoholic Anonyms meetings. I met so many interesting people threw my father. My entire view of the world and its inhabitants has been altered. Growing up was very difficult but the experiences that I had has shaped the person I am today.
I was ready to give up and forget about it all together. Until an amazing opportunity arose. How I came across my first job couldn’t be anything but destiny. In 2016 I attended a wedding and this might seem harsh but it was a disaster. I could name at least 50 things that went wrong.
I remember the time when I had gotten promoted to high school as a 9th grader. That time was so important to me, at that time and age. It was a phase that you usually get over. I was growing up and starting all over again in a different environment with entirely different motives. I had started at the lowest class in the school, once again, as a freshman. I wasn’t a big 8th grader that internally felt more in control due to my age and experience. It was quite odd, just a couple of days before promotion, I was 8th grader, however I had more similarities with a 6th grader. This was me starting from strength to weakness. Through that I figured it out. Life is a process of phases that repeat, and helps a person grow. The famous novelist and blogger
A person does not experience many events that shape their life in a large way, whether it be for better or worse. I have had just one major situation that has sculpted me into the person that I am today. In February of 2008, I was diagnosed with a life changing disease; it would relieve me of the agony I had been experiencing for as long as I could remember, but also restrict my diet for the rest of my life.
In my life there has been many actions I had to take in order to be where I am at now. I had to go through thick and thin and jump every obstacle put in my way. However, there was a specific action I did that changed my life forever. Around the age of 14 I decided to take a big leap and move from my hometown in Mexico to Austin, Texas. Coming to Texas from Mexico was a drastic change for me from the language to the culture. I had to leave my life and family behind and start from zero again. This transition was very hard for me, doubt roamed my mind. I began to fear the unknown. Had I made the right decision in coming in search of a better life? I asked myself this question every day until I realized that I had. I knew I did not move to Texas
Nothing has changed my life more since the realization that I had to make who I was something that I chose, and not something that just happened. Since this revelation nothing seemed the same anymore, as though I could see the world through new eyes. It changed everything from my taste in music, literature, and movies. Things of a dark and pessimistic nature used to hold a strong allure for me, and yet I found much of things I once enjoyed didn't seem to entertain me anymore. I remembered the mental state that I once held and now seeing how I have changed, know that I can never return to the prison I came from.
Many changes for the good and some were bad but, there were some learning experiences that help make me a better person. The events in my life, was dealing with the Birth and The Death of my first daughter.
I had to mature quickly and learn how to take care of someone else besides myself. I am now a mother to four children. They have taught me how to have patience. This has become something I value very much. I have learned that in life you must wait for things. I now know that there was a reason why I had my son so early and wasn’t able to go to college upon graduating high school. I am so thankful that I had patience and waited for the right time to enter. It has been 14 years since I graduated high school, and I’m attending college and know exactly what I want to become. I had patience and took care of my babies at home before I decided to go to school. It hasn’t always been easy, but I’m so glad I
The word, strength means the power of exerting muscular force but theres also inner strength which is the overcoming of obstacles when others told you it couldn't be done. Strength is to wake up every morning and think, not what could I have done, but what I can do in the future and also being able to try again instead of giving up. Once one has pushed through their mental barriers, they continue to push through harder barriers and thus, they become stronger inside. Inner strength shows that you should live life to the fullest and that you have the power within yourself to rise above the things in life that try to hold you down and that you should not give up. You have the strength to continue on when things seem to be at their worst.
Many years ago when I was a freshman in high school, an event happened to me that changed my life for the better. My friend invited me to go hiking with him and his sister. He was going to go hiking in Yosemite. The following day I prepared myself mentally and physically in order to accomplish this hike.
...of my life, such as family, school, and work. Suddenly I was easily succeeding in all these areas, where as I had always struggled with them in the past. My health was better than it had ever been before which kept me from having to make visits to see the doctor, let alone the emergency room. I also had money saved up that would have previously been spent on fast food, cigarettes, and drinks at the bar.
Being strong willed and strong hearted is a trait that many feel is a great character to have. At
I had allowed my very own insecurities and the words of someone else to keep me from fulfilling my dreams and from experiencing the possibilities that were ahead of me. I had shut down all of my plans without even giving them a shot! Soon after making this realization, I decided to recommit myself. I asked myself, “What’s the worst thing that can happen?” I definitely did not have the money or the grades at the time, but I refused to give up on myself. If things didn’t turn out how I wanted them to, at least, I could say that I never gave up on myself. I began to work on myself academically, spiritually and emotionally. First, after asking my school guidance counselor for assistance, I started taking online courses and spending all of my weekends studying and catching up on my school work, which had a great impact on my grades and GPA. Then, I began to faithfully attend my local church, where I made wonderful friends who got me out of my shell of insecurities. I also met church leaders who pushed me to be the best that I could be, not just for myself, but for God as well. Now, this definitely did not happen overnight, I spent a whole year fighting my way out of the dark miserable hole I was in, but with dedication, persistence, and God’s strength, I was able to persevere through it