Growing Up Research Paper

It is not easy being heard in a loud world as a soft-spoken adolescent. Growing up I developed a fear of being approached by people with whom I was not familiar. Due to my shy personality, I started to develop anti-social tendencies; productivity seemed to decline or remain constant and relationships became harder to come by because I did not know what to say.
When I woke up for the first day of high school I was nervous as I did not know what to wear which caused my thoughts to be taken over by that panic monster that every freshman know so well; I became very afraid, wondering if my peers would look at me differently or choose to be accept me. With this in mind, my day was already shaping up to be the most horrible thing to experience because

I isolated myself from other kids, and I went somewhere and sat by myself so nobody would follow or sit next to me. As months passed it became a routine, dodging interaction and finding secluded spots so I could sit by myself, until one day a girl walked in my direction with eyes fixed on my location. My heart started to pound really fast, and I could feel the sweat starting to develop trying to make its way out of my pores. Basically, it felt as if I had just finished an intense warm-up just before running a marathon. As she got closer, I started thinking about what I should say. So I just act like I did not see her until she got to my table and said hi, so instead of saying hi to her I just waved my hands because I could not get the words out. Then she asked if she could sit next to me, I said yes silently so no one would

I say this because shyness affected my ability to collaborate. As a result I was not able to do group projects with my peers. I did not know how to interact with my peers; so, instead, I would just do the project by myself and hand it to my teacher. What I did not know was that the teacher was grading everybody as group, and we had to present our project in front of the whole class. That made me nervous because I had never presented in front of a group of students. I had to find a way to avoid presenting that project. Instead, I just did my project, and I came up with an excuse and informed my peers that I would not be able to present with them because I had a doctor’s appointment. After I handed my made up excuse in writing to my peers, I just went home. While I was at home, I kept thinking all day if my teacher and peer’s would buy into my excuse about a doctor appointment or would they find out that I was