The Time I Knew She Wasn T Going To Make It Essay

The Time I Realized She Wasn’t Going To Make It

On what felt like the longest day of my life I found out that one of my very close friends was diagnosed with cancer. When I first heard out that A had cancer I was so depressed and I did not know what to say. The day she told me she had cancer was the worst day of my life. It seemed like it lasted for decades and would never come to an end. She was non stop in and out of the hospital and would never crack a smile or even want to for that matter. Everyone in her family and mine were all shocked when we heard this very depressing news. She only told me and a few of her other friends what had happened. She told her friends and I to not tell anyone about it, I listened but sadly the others

It’s already a sensitive subject for her to talk about so when she was asked she told them but after awhile she ended up not wanting to tell anyone anymore. That is when she decided to not go outside or to be social with anybody, because she now knows that she couldn’t trust anyone. Not her friends, not her family, nobody. So on the day that A had her appointment she told her mom she didn’t want to go. Her mom told her that it is the day that A gets to decide if she wants to chemotherapy or not. A tells me she has to go to her appointment so I wish her luck and she comes back and tells me that she had the option to do chemo or not. She chose not doing chemo. My heart sank like the titanic>, I never would’ve thought that she would want to stay with the cancer. I thought that she would try to get it removed and tried to get help with it. But instead she chose to stick it out and not to worry. That was the worst thing she could’ve done. She never thought that she was gonna end up dying at such a young age. The thing that killed me on the inside was that she was acting like she was cancer free, like she had nothing wrong with her. Like, she was fine… She ended up not being fine. She ended up becoming a nervous wreck and stressing herself out to the max. No matter what she did, she could not figure out a way to be

She has a major concussion and won’t be out for awhile. When I went and visited her at the hospital she didn’t end up knowing who I was or why I was coming and visiting her. She knew she got into an accident but she didn’t know who anyone was. Not her mom, dad, sister, or even her friends. She thought that they were just some random people coming to see her.

A wasn’t even worried about herself, she was worried about her car or if the other person was okay. The whole time I was visiting her, she was talking about the accident and she was saying she was sorry and that she didn’t mean to do what she did. Even though no matter how many times we told her she didn’t do anything wrong she still seemed to believe it was all her fault. As the days went on she started remembering who we all were. She said my name, and she remembered who I was. A smile crept onto my face. I could see the future in her eyes, when she looked up at me I could see many more bright months with her.

All my worries and fears were gone, All the sadness and depression left my body. “She’s going to be ok” I kept telling myself. “She’s gonna be ok”. Sadly, I had to leave and go home. I told her she I would be back in the