Reflection On My Role As A Child's Behavior Of Children

Coming from nonbeliever’s background inevitably made my reflection a challenge. I was raised by an uneducated parents, in which made me hardly had a strong memory on how they had raise me up in a biblical or morally context. Therefore, as I do my reflection on some reading assignments and classes, I can only reflect on my role as “mother” to my both sisters who are eleven and sixteen younger than me. I comprehend that playing the role “mother” is not my responsibility instead of my parents, nevertheless I have been playing that role ever since they were born. That time, I wasn’t even a believer. Both my parents were “absence” in their roles. As I reflected on it, I admitted that I had made many mistakes. But the good part is, I pray I will

It was an eye opening for them as they realized the sinful behavior of children due to sin. And now, it is an eye opening moment to me. It has never crossed my mind that the discipline children’s behavior is not the priority. In fact, it is the heart that matter. I used to discipline both my sisters’ behavior during they were teenagers. I could not understand why they would create many messes and hurt to the family. On one hand, I had finally understood that teenager’s brain still under development but on the other hand, I am struggle. I used to be harsh on them in words. Whenever they did wrong, I would used the word of God to put the senses of guilt on them. As a result, now they are not willing to know and follow this God. To them, God is the Judge who would always condemn their wrongdoing as their eldest sister. They have never truly experienced what is love and forgiveness from God and neither have they seen the example in our parents and me. Yet, I still believe that the Lord is good. Although, men made mistakes, still He is God of second chance. I thank God that the readings not merely surfaced my past bad experiences towards my sister. It also taught me to prompt deeper into their heart intention beyond their behavior. Hence, I should not react on their behavior, which sometimes I still do. Instead, I should continuously pray that I can put into act the biblical values

Since young, although I have honored my parents by obeying most of their instructions. Still it have never crossed my mind that children are not allowed in making decision. Truly, it does sound cruel in initial. All this while, I thought children can make their decision like the food choices they want or clothes they wear. I didn’t expect that such an act would eventually reap the bad habit in their decision making and thus their life. I didn’t even realize that such obedience and submissive to parents will eventually lead to God’s. Currently, I have seen disobedience act in younger generation of my family. Children are freely to choose what they want. I really do not wish to see any unwanted “tragedy” such as pre-marital sex, drug’s involvement or even dropout of school. It has been happening among my generation and I really do not want to see it continue to pass to younger generation. So far, there are only two options I have. First, I can educate my sister who is a single mum about this insight. The matter is how to reverse is indeed a challenge for both of us. I believe God is Sovereign. May He has mercy on my family. Secondly, I can teach this new insight to my current disciples who are mother. I believe it will be an eye opening for them too yet will better their children to honor God as their