Personal Narrative: If I Had It All Over Again

If I could do it all over again.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes like many other people in their lifetime. I’m not proud of my decisions in the past but I do believe it has made me who I am today. If I had the opportunity to do anything over again it would be my sophomore year of highschool, freshman year of college and sophomore year of college over again. If I could go back in time I would have made wiser decisions and accepted myself for who I was and enjoyed the process of who I would soon become.

At the end of my freshmen year of highschool my mother decided she wanted my family and I to move to York, Pennsylvania. This surprised me because I was born and raised in Baltimore Maryland, I’d never lived anywhere else. When I moved to Pennsylvania I was in for a ruid awakening, I was used to going to school with predominantly african american people so when my mother told me I would be attending a school with predominantly white people I was scared. I was a girl who loved her constantly changed her hair. I loved weave and wigs because I thought it was a fun way of expressing myself as well as changing up my look as I grew tired of the same hairstyle. Being in a different environment made me feel uncomfortable to change my hairstyles.

I feared failure. I knew that this particular year was going to be my most difficult year yet and I tried to feed positivity to myself however; negative thoughts overpowered the positive thoughts. I realized my workload was really heavy and wanted to give up. I remember my first chemistry test being one of my worst test ever. I felt like a failure. Every time my mother or grandmother asked how I was doing I would lie and say I was doing great but deep down inside I felt like giving up and my work ethic showed exactly that throughout the year. If I had to advise myself back then I would tell myself to keep working, seek a tutor and to not be afraid of failure but be afraid to not keep