Narrative Essay On Social Anxiety

As a person who use to have severe social anxiety, I can resonate with all the experience and symptoms mentioned. The strangest part is that I can’t exactly pinpoint when it all started. If I had to discuss about the origin, I would describe it as a very slow development that began in my childhood. From my deepest memories as child, I remember I was always friendly and made friends easily. Every day after school, I would be seen playing in the park with other kids and beg my mom to take me out whenever she would go grocery shopping. However, as I got older, I started living with my sister and my brother in law. My brother in law never liked my nonchalant attitude. Many times, he would tell me that I am a selfish and naïve child because I have

Afterward, I left the dining table, a changed 10 years old girl and what changed was my belief that I was worth anything more than what he said I was.
Slowly, I started changing my social behavior without even realizing myself. Apart from normal family gathering, Strict curfews and rules were placed and during this time, grades was something that meant everything in terms of getting into the specialize high schools so the time that I’ve had for clubs and activities outside of the house were sacrificed for prepping and studying at home. It didn’t help when middle school years is the period where puberty and drama happen. Rumors, clique formations and judgements are the basis of pre-teen and is an unavoidable social stage. Bullying was a major problem for children that were just beginning their teenage life. From the many instances, where I’ve gotten into arguments and fights as a kid, I was told to not stand up for myself in those situations to avoid confrontation. Fearing what others thought of me and the troubles that I would cause for my parent, I became a prime target for middle school bullies. Throughout that experience, whenever people treated me