My Identity

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Above all I am an artist, but above everything else I am a music nut. I find it impossible to distinguish between my identity as a musician and my identity as a listener; for me, there would not be one without the other. Music is so deeply ingrained in my sense of self that it tends to permeate everything and manifest in many different forms. However, it is possible to single out a few ways in which music is important to my identity – performance, audiophilia, love for the abstract and cerebral parts of music, and agency in seeking out bands, genres, and sounds – through connections to cultural cohorts and formations. Because these particular elements of my musical identity call for a great deal of dedication and monopolize much of my time …show more content…

In this case, I am putting in effort towards making music (even if it is not an original composition). This can require a great deal of group rehearsal and individual practice, taking up space in my life in the form of time; the time commitment alone makes performance a great influence on my identity. Furthermore, it connects me to a cultural cohort composed of people with similar levels of dedication to music through performance, a shared habit “that [binds] people into social groups according to specific aspects of the self” (Turino 95). Being in groups with more dedicated members not only increases my satisfaction – and therefore personal connection – with the music we create, but also generates a strong cultural cohort due to the close ties everyone has with music, practice, and performance. In cases where the ensemble is weak, most of the time due to the presence of less-committed members, it has been my experience that the more enthusiastic musicians tend to split off and create their own groups and form bonds that could not be found in the less cohesive ensemble. This extra effort was particularly beneficial to me in high school, where jazz ensemble proved to be more rewarding than concert band, and either pit orchestra or independent bands more rewarding than jazz ensemble due to the extra dedication required by each successive performance …show more content…

This can mean knowledge of general theory, enjoyment of more technical or complex sounds, or many other things; the unifying factor here is in both the abstract elements of music and how they apply in practice. Music that appeals to this side of me does not necessarily require a ton of extra (some would say “unnecessary”) effort to comprehend; rather, it prompts deeper thought regarding theory and technicality and can result in a deeper understanding of not only the particular piece of music itself, but also music in general through theoretical knowledge. That is not to say, however, that understanding a song by Mastodon or Porcupine Tree or Benny Greb requires a deep exploration of music theory. Ideally, technically complex music causes the listener to draw on their existing knowledge and exercise their chops. This effect can be caused by many different genres, meaning that a love for music’s cerebral components can generate bonds between seemingly disparate groups of listeners, resulting in “broader, more pervasive patterns of shared habits that give rise to cultural formations” (95). Connections based on an abstract concept like this have the potential to influence identity in a quite profound way; it certainly has in my

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