My Digest Moment

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The mandala I had used was the one with my two palms faced up almost as if I was asking for support from God. I focused on the sounds of the air conditioning vent. I could hear the crossing of the loud blows with the quiet blows beneath it. I no longer could hear the chattering of the student’s outside. My focus was placed on my breathing. I began breathing in and taking a deep breathe out, while counting. However, I noticed that I was soon out of breath and began to take slower breaths in order to calm my anxiousness. Since I was counting my breaths, I was not bombarded with my usual thoughts. I noticed myself relaxing and forgetting that I was meditating. The breathing with the eyes shut began to feel natural. Although I was not able to maintain …show more content…

I felt as though I had recharged my batteries with just simply remaining silent and becoming aware of my surroundings. The ache in my lower back disappeared and for a few moments I was not flooded with my usual stress and worry about assignments. I began to notice that practice of zazen was true in fact since “when your mind is agitated, your breath is agitated”. I took this practice of continuing the breaths to my next class and remained calm the entire class time. Since I was not worrying about my stomachaches or the aches in my body, I was able to extract the information taught and understand it more than before. I learned from this meditation that all of the components of my body are connected, if one is weakened then the other parts cannot perform their best causing me to feel at …show more content…

I refrained from touching my nose and fixing my hair which at certain points during the previous meditations began to bother me. During the previous from last week, I could not stop from peeking my eyes open or cracking my knuckles. I noticed that once I began to fall deeper into the meditation and calm my breathings, I felt the circulation of my blood slowing down which caused me to begin to itch. Last week, I quickly broke my transcendental awareness and gave in to the urge to move around in my seat which eventually made it harder for me to get back to the relaxed state I was once in. During this class, when I felt myself become itchy, I fought my natural instinct to scratch it which temporarily distracted me from counting breaths. However, when I began to forget about the itchiness and began counting again, I was flooded with useless thoughts. I made lists in my head of the countless things I needed to complete today, thought about what I was going to eat after this class, and about what I needed to tell my mother during our usual phone call after class. I enjoyed my internal dialogue and being able to actually listen to myself rather than doing what I usually did which was acknowledging my thoughts, but not really analyzing them. I felt my body soon relax and loosen up. The strain I initially felt in my neck and back disappeared. When I opened my eyes, I noticed that the feeling of distress

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