Monologue About Cancer

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Cancer. I couldn’t believe it. I think we were both in denial. Then the reality set in. My husband was diagnosed with testicular cancer. The questions came flooding over us. How are we going to pay for his treatments? How long will he be out of work? Why us? The one question we didn’t even want to say out loud, what if he doesn’t make it? He was a healthy thirty-one-year-old. Life was busy, he owned his own remolding business we were raising four young daughters, and serving in our church callings. He came home and didn’t feel good. His back was hurting, he thought he pulled a muscle. He went to the doctors, after a few days of not feeling any better. They did some tests and found a lump. He would need surgery. They scheduled the surgery …show more content…

His office encouraged us to go and apply for Medicaid. I remember driving by myself down to the Medicaid office. I was so lost walking into the building and looking for the room number. Finding the room and people waiting in hard plastic chairs for their name to be called, kids were crying or playing on the floor around their mom. “I don’t belong here” I thought. I almost turned and left, but we needed help paying for Stephen’s treatment. I met with a social worker and they gave me some paper work to fill out and said come back next week. I went back the next week with the signed documents, but had to meet with a different social worker this one had different forms that I needed to have signed by the doctor. I left again feeling defeated. I remember crying to my husband and saying, “I don’t know what they want”. I felt like it was a game and if I could figure out the magic password they would grant me the Medicaid. It must have been my third or fourth visit I finally had everything they wanted. I remember sitting at the social workers large desk, he had pushed two office desks together. He gingerly took my papers from me. He wouldn’t even shake my hand, it was like he was afraid of catching something from me. I didn’t care at that point I was just so relieved that I wouldn’t have to come back for a few months. Grocery shopping was another hurdle I had to face. I would shop

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