How To Lose Her Grandmother To Suicide?

Even when life seems wonderful and smooth, someone could be in a dark place of despair. Someone’s mental health is not always reflected in their words or actions. Mental battles of life and death occur everyday. Most people don’t realize the amount of people affected by depression and suicidal thoughts. My good friend, Evelyn, who I have been best friends for almost a year now, recently lost her grandmother to suicide. Not only does suicide affect the person who commits it, but their entire family and friends. For Evelyn, it almost led to her losing her life too. Evelyn was extremely close to her grandmother. They talked on the phone a lot, went through a great deal of the same situations in life and even looked and had almost the same

The next few months would be filled with tears and heartache. They went out to Los Angeles, where her grandparents lived for the funeral. Her grandmother had been cremated before they reached Los Angeles, which created a mental gap for them. They not only had to deal with the loss of her, but weren’t able to have closure of seeing her body. After the funeral, Evelyn’s grandfather called everyday to talk. She thought it was because he was lonely, but realized that was not the case at all. He started getting distraught and having discussions with her that weren’t on topic. About two weeks later, her grandfather began violently cursing at her, called her vulgar names and kept saying “why would you do this, why?”. They found out the reason he had been calling a great amount is because Evelyn sounded exactly like her grandmother. Her grandfather’s stimuli of blaming her for actions that were not hers, created her to sink into a deep depression. For Evelyn, it was devastating. Not only did her beloved grandmother kill herself, she was now being blamed for her death in a twisted way. The accusations of her grandfather slowly started taking a toll on Evelyn’s

She began to hate herself and have suicidal thoughts. She refused to leave her bed and began an eating disorder. Her depression caused her to either not eat at all or to binge eat. Furthermore she didn’t exercise and spent a huge amount of time indoors or watching Netflix. Her friends had begun to withdrawal from her when she started to act strange. Her lack of friend support through this hard time was another contributing factor to her mental state. In addition to depression, she lost lost her faith in God as well. By blaming God for her grandmother’s death and grandfather’s response, it took a type of weight off of her. Loathing God and her own existence created her to sink even deeper into depression. By staying inside and isolating herself, her awful thoughts began to consume her. Her parents realized the horrible mental and physical situation she was in. They encouraged her to spend time outdoors and to be around people, to prevent her from bathing in her thoughts. Her mother suggested she try some type of writing or art to show her true feelings, so Evelyn began painting. Her grandmother was a huge supporter of the arts, thus Evelyn thought if she started to paint, she could