Esther's Suicide In The Bell Jar

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Throughout Sylvia Plath’s The Bell Jar, Esther Greenwood’s unsuccessful suicide attempts stem from her evolving relationship with Buddy Willard. Esther’s way of expressing herself is through passing away, in which her constant desire to die roots itself in her multiple suicide attempts. However, she does not follow through with committing suicide which demonstrates her reluctance to end her life. Since Buddy holds much significance over the way she thinks and makes her decisions, his hypocritical comments cause her to re-evaluate her attitude towards him. Esther’s changing notion of Buddy provokes her to further explore her feelings for him, where if she killed herself, she would have no longer been able to look into her true feelings for him. …show more content…

I thought he was the most wonderful boy I'd ever seen” (Plath 52). Esther’s contradicting descriptions of Buddy illustrate the insecurity that derives from her mental illness. Plath’s juxtaposition of the two words “hypocrite” and “wonderful” convey a challenging characterization of Buddy, which reflects on Esther’s mental illness. Due to the fact that the novel is written through first person, Esther’s feelings are unfiltered and unbiased which conveys a sense of the honest perception of Buddy. Esther’s troubling ability to make a solid decision on what to feel emulates itself in Esther’s failure to commit suicide. This inadequacy Esther has within herself contributes to her suicidal thoughts, however she is unable to fulfill them. “My trouble was I took everything Buddy Willard said as the honest to-God truth”(Plath 57). Esther goes on to say, “(I knew buddy was a hypocrite, pg number?).” Esther acknowledges that she is a hypocrite alongside Buddy by specifying explaining that even though she “knew”, she still believed everything he said. In Esther’s second accusation of Buddy being a hypocrite, Plath’s use of the term “knew” gives Esther some sort of security and confirmation in what she is saying. Since Esther is mentally ill, her statement are not always reliable, therefore she ensures that he really is a hypocrite by using “knew”. In addition to Esther’s restriction from expressing her true feelings towards Buddy, she is unable to follow through with her suicide attempts, which is a way of expressing

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