Creative Writing: Eulogy For Father

I have a picture of him and me smiling like a pair of goofs hidden sound and safe in between the pages of my one of my favorites books. I don’t have the courage to look at it. The thought of missing him even more terrifies me as much as it draws me in with hopes of reviving, once again, the memories of that day. No, our relationship isn’t over. We didn’t break up. We didn’t stop loving each other. In fact, I’m not afraid to say that we’re the happiest we’ve ever been. But when the person you love the most sits miles away from where you are, and when the touch of their lips against yours becomes a distant memory you fight to keep, you begin to feel incomplete. I don’t regret the choices I’ve made. I don’t regret loving him, even from afar.

But not everything was bad. He was still there waiting for me when I got home, we still talked for hours on end, and we continued loving each other even more so than before. This time, it would be 10 long months until we met again. But it was worth it. Every single second with him is worth it. The thrill of enjoying all those little moments just like a new couple does was always one of the best parts of seeing each other again, and this time too we made the best of the days we had together. Truth is we don’t know if our dreams of one day living together will ever come true, but when we look into each other eyes we know that despite all the hardships we’ve been through we wouldn’t trade the memories for anything. The lessons I have learned while being far from the person I love are something as precious and valuable as our relationship. I know that one day everything can end just as quickly as it began, and perhaps without knowing so we have already said our final goodbyes. There isn’t some secret formula on how to have a healthy relationship, let alone one that’s long distance, but at least I realize that what we have is special and worth fighting for. When you don’t have the possibility of going out on dates, of physically comforting each other when you’re having a bad day or simply holding hands, you make sure to make the best of what you are given. While we might not be able to go out together like any other couple, we make sure to spend as much as we can with each other. And yes, we don’t really know if we will have the opportunity of meeting each other again, but we still get as excited as the first time when we’re planning all the activities we want to do and all the places we want to visit if the time finally comes. My fear of losing him is strong, but is not as strong or driving as the love I have for him. Whatever the future has for us, we will face it