A Course In Miracles Analysis

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When she is telling me that you are doing it wrong, guess who I fear I am. Dad! Bingo. And that's not what I want to feel, you know? Because if I am Dad, then that's the end of my life, because I - my whole identity was wrapped up in being the answer to Dad. Now all of a sudden I'm Dad? Forget it. Like, you have just met...I'm not going there. So, I've gotta make her wrong, before I can admit that I'm wrong. So this is our second level of defense, underneath the mask, we have a guard that is like "attack and blame". This is our second level of defense when somebody actually, legitimately starts knocking on the door of the basement, the pit bull kicks in. We actually think they are doing it. The knock is actually, and literally, …show more content…

But even right now, on a psychological level, when she's knocking on that door and my upset comes up, for me to finally get "I am not upset for the reasons I think". I'm not upset because she is …show more content…

I'm a Catholic, I'm confessing! It's what we do! Catholics confess, Presbyterians get polite. So, I'm gonna make fun of this, but this is really what happened to us. I'm looking, "there's something about that guy on stage, talking about relationship and spirituality. That's me, relationship expert! Spiritual guy! Now, I'm not gonna walk over there and say "Hi", you know? I think that I am really not important underneath it all, and not good enough, but I really need you to love me. Really love me! Yeah...Sorry, I just, I'm in the middle of a lecture here, wanna sit back down? Right? This is not gonna be my approach! No! Because what are the chances of success, not very high. Instead, off I go. I tuck that not important thing away firmly, lock it up in the basement, off I go. And I am more like "Hi! That was a really brilliant lecture." "Really?" "It was, I was really impressed!" "Really? So you like this

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