The panic. The anxiety. The feeling that my heart had skipped a couple beats and I didn’t know what to do. I don’t remember the last time I felt so nervous or anxious about anything, but this experience surely would have won “Most Embarrassing” by a landslide. This is how I felt almost every single time I did something that could be considered even slightly awkward or embarrassing. As someone who worries about everything about twenty-four hours each day (hyperbole), it’s actually not a surprise to me that something so simple could have slipped my mind and caused a chain of events to occur just like dominoes (simile). I have been on this earth for a good seventeen and a half years, and it’s quite unbelievable to think that I was so sheltered by my family that I had never pumped gas until just recently. To be fair, I only got my license over a month ago, which was an entire year late, also thanks to my strict, worried parents. As unbelievable as it was to everyone, it was true. And I was going to have to figure out how to pump gas without the anxiety of thinking I could somehow drive off while forgetting to pay, or driving into the gas pump, or messing something up somehow that every normal person can do with ease. One night at around 11 PM after closing my shift as a server where I …show more content…
Worried about what others would think about me, which is how I almost always feel, I attempted to hide the fact that I yet again had done something stupid. News of my embarrassing situations traveled fast at work (personification), but I learned to move on from it quickly. The panic and anxiety of daily life activities caused me more stress than it should have, which most people didn’t understand. Over time, I have come to realize that the simple mistakes I have made are not really that awful, but the stress always outweighs everything else in my
There are far too many instances in the world in which situations, actions, or emotions lead us to be different people than who we truly are. There are many ways that one can become stressed or upset, and there are various different ways that one can go about dealing with it - ways that can cause one to lose friends, family, or even oneself. For instance, when I was young girl, my grandfather had begun to become very stressed due to problems at work, and he was beginning to ache all over his body. He would often turn to alcohol in order to escape his troubles, but the alcohol led him down the wrong path, and he suddenly became very angry and cruel towards his family members and friends. He understood that he was treating everybody cruelly, but he still could not seem to grasp the strings that controlled his life. He felt horrendous and he loathed the man that he had become. He eventually grew exhausted of himself and he gradually stripped himself of the monster and found himself once again; he finally became the man that he and his family knew and loved. It is easy to lose oneself in the midst of a stressful drama, but it is extremely important to remain true to oneself.
As you can imagine I was contributing my fair share of all the clamor, but after about seven hours it soon became apparent that the effect of energy drinks would wear off. If you could have been there and looked around you would have seen some people reading, other talking amongst themselves; however, I was playing halo on my laptop. About two hours later after just getting into Colorado everything bad you can imagine started happening. I was asleep at this time, but when I heard the loud BOOM!, SNAP!, and HISS, I was instantly awake and wondering what had just happened. At first everyone thought it was just a blow out, but after our youth pastor got out and checked all the tires it soon became clear that there was a much bigger problem at hand. So our youth pastor decided we should call a mechanic and a tow truck, the problem was deciding if we should call...
My neighbor Brandon and I were both barely fifteen when we took drivers education. We were both nervous and excited about learning how to drive, and we had purchased the book for the class early. We began studying to take the exam for our learner’s permit since we would be eligible after the third class. We were the first few students to schedule drive time at the school, which left me with butterflies in the pit of my stomach. However, Brandon was cocky. I just remember having all kinds of mixed emotions.
The fear of humiliation shadowed over my life, it was not easy to accept what has happened. The shame i felt many years back still plays a great role in my life today. Moving from school to school, i would cast an image of my past friends onto the people i just met, distancing myself to i was to fearful to experience the shame again. I began to open up to those around me, looking back into my past, the chill rushed straight back up my spine. The people around my life began to support my fears and to a point allowed me to visit my past and gain positive experience from.The shame helped me stand for who I am, giving me the courage to be different, stand out from the crowd. My life was truly changed, it was as if a heavy stone was lifted from my chest. I accepted what has happened and moved on, the doors that i shut now open thanks to the incident. My time abroad became a much more valued time as i embraced more of its culture and
However, I must state that in the past few months I have changed in this aspect. I can accept failing at things. I have had several experiences in the past 2 months and my reactions have not been so critical. I try to avoid things I cannot do well, I dropped the Psychology of Learning class this semester. I might have been able to pass the class; however, it but it would have been a C at most and I was stressing horribly over this. I am 55 years old and have been taking classes for the past 3 semesters. I have found it difficult to be an A student like I used to be, but have accepted that my learning is slower now and don’t stress over this anymore. I still get upset when I make mistakes but not as drastically and I calm down within a few seconds. I stalk myself and when I am reacting to situations; I stop and analyze and diffuse my thought process.
Acknowledging the truth also allows us to expand our knowledge about ourselves. Thus, grants our ability to change. Although telling others about our mistakes bring us to the darkest pit of our shame and humiliation, those who truly care will stick through all our flaws. Instead of retreating back to our safe bubble after a huge mistake, we must use that failure as evidence that we are learning, risking, and trying our best to meet our potential. Without risk, there is often no
Recognize Your Strengths. The procedure of self-disclosure is not just about uncovering awful stuff about yourself. It is additionally about respecting your qualities and capacities. As you turn out to be more mindful of what you are great at, you reduce the rundown on shortcomings. You have to figure out how to love yourself.
You see I thought that no one would know if I just smiled and pretended like I was fine but I had been lying to myself because God knows. That night one of my greatest mentors Audrey DeFord sat next to me and spoke life into me. One thing she told me that i constantly have to remind myself to this day is, “The things done to you, said to you cannot define you only God can. You have a savior, a perfect Father who wants to lift that burden and guilt off of your shoulders and give you joy.
When I left my room, my mother knew that I had gone through a rough time, and I did not want to talk to her about it. Even though there was only a month left in my school year, I promised myself that I would be completely truthful to my friends, my family, my heritage, and myself. I expected all my friends to leave me, but I was fully prepared for this. However, none of this ever happened. My friends didn’t leave me, I wasn’t alone at the lunch table, I wasn’t even seem differently by those around me. I had failed my family by doing this, and I wished I had stopped acting like someone I wasn’t sooner. This is one of the only mistakes I have made which I consider a failure because it had taken me close to a year to fix, and this is why I consider it my most successful failure.
It is never easy to admit you’ve made a mistake, but it is a crucial step in learning, growing, and improving yourself. You can only learn from a mistake after you admit you’ve made it. As soon as you start blaming other people, you distance yourself from any possible lesson or reason. In the article “How to identify and learn from your mistakes” Berkun explains why it is hard to admit that you’ve made a mistake. “It’s never easy to admit you’ve made a mistake, but it’s a crucial step in learning, growing, and improving yourself. If you be honest and tell the truth that you make a mistake, the possibilities for learning will move towards you. (Berkun). In the article “Berkun” Berkun explains why telling the truth on making a mistake will help you learn more from
Three seconds left on the clock, ball is in my hands, down by one. A deep three pointer for the win. Game. What three things can make this ordinary every day person into a champion amongst everyone else? A competitive nature, a never give up attitude, and hubris towards what they do.
During my freshman year of college, I had met one of my best friends, who go by name Jill. (She lives in New Jersey and while I live in Pennsylvania) I found it to be strange that sometimes, it feels like we have grown up with one another but in reality we have only one another for four years and I couldn’t be more thankful. I can remember when we met at school as if it was yesterday.
I believed I experienced my most embarrass moment of the year was during mid of this semester where I accidentally walk into the girl’s toilet in college.
As we were eating some sleazy greasy food, I obviously had to tell my friends about running from the law and my involvement. After telling all my friends about my night so far they all had a good laugh. Later that night when we were leaving the Waffle House the law was behind by my car running the tag. Once the law left we definitely decided it would be a good decision to go home. However, when we started to leave I put the petal to the metal. We fish tailed the car sideways, and as I was trying to regain control of the wheel I accidentally over corrected. If one knows anything about driving cars to fast and or wild, one of the biggest mistakes one can make is to over correct. Following my big mistake the car spun out of control off the road, into the ditch, up a hill, and finally came to a rest once I had hit a power pole with the rear bumper. As if the night had not already been embarrassing enough for me, this car accident put the amount of embarrassment I felt over the
For at least fifteen years of my life, I kept my emotions bottled up, my secrets under lock and key. Not once did I even question if I could talk about my life to anybody, I couldn’t. Instead of learning to talk about my life, to talk about my feelings, to talk about my troubles and my hardships and my state of being… I learned to be ashamed. I learned wrong.