Personal Narrative: Kanye West's Real Friends

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I don’t like writing about myself, I special don’t like writing about something that is deeply personal to me. I like my privacy, but I have to compromise. There is one story, a story I have never shared in writing or in it’s entirety. Like most stories it has people, and like most Shakespearean romances it has a girl. But this is not a love story, it’s a story of my struggle. How much do I share or how little do I tell. I’m uncertain on what to say and how to say. Being an emotional story, but having a discomfort in expressing myself, especially to the unknown, I’m in conflict on how to write. Also I don’t want to write a cliche break up, teenage love story, but it’s the best story I have. It’s also the longest story I have, it’s so long that …show more content…

How many of us, how many jealous? Those are the intro lines to Kanye West’s Real Friends, and those are the lines I think of in connection to what I did. What started off as a simple confession to her lead to an unregretful sin. I trusted her, she was my one of my closest friends. I told her how I felt about another girl. She was a very close friend of ours. She then revealed how she felt about me. I told her how I had felt about her. We both realized that we felt a certain way for each other, but that nothing could manifest. We agreed that it was pretty to ignore our feelings, but that didn’t happen. Our relationship became a secret even from our closest friends. But that didn’t help me cope with the guilt I …show more content…

I felt like Cain when he envied Abel. I didn’t kill, but I had ended our friendship and I wasn’t banished for my crime, I think that was the worst of it. I felt like OJ, facing no punishment. But had karama has no grace. In almost the same manner I had betrayed my friend she betrayed me. She blamed me, said she took pity on me and that she didn’t want to be with me but return to the side of my friend. I then understood why people say the express “thrown under the bus”, because it feels like your heart was being rolled over by an immensely large object the size of a bus. What do you do when the love turns to hate. When trust is lost in your most trustful friend. I didn’t want revenge, I just wanted to erase her from my life. She became invisible to me. I didn’t want to be near her, say her name or hear her name. Everyday after that day I would wake up with a type of morning sickness. I didn’t have the a desire to eat and felt nauseated. This went on for months till I finally visited the doctor, but he told me I was physically fine and that the most probable cause was stress or something in my daily morning routine. I told him I wasn’t stress at all, but I lied. I didn’t want anyone to know that the stress of the situation and me not knowing how to deal with it or cope with it had made me cringe. This continued till the end of the year and that is how me junior

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