Personal Narrative-Going To High School

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Going to high school during COVID-19 was one of the lowest parts of my life, but it was also the most knowledgeable. Distance learning is something I cannot do. Waking up every morning to sit in front of a screen for 5-6 hours was not good for me academically, I was not able to focus at all and little things distracted me. I could not participate in extracurricular activities I wanted to do, even though that was one of the main things I was looking forward to because I never joined a club or a sport. My mental health quickly deteriorated, and feeling left behind was something constantly on my mind. Regardless of the negatives, I learned many things about myself. I was able to unlearn some of my insecurities and become more aware of my emotions. …show more content…

In the middle of my 9th-grade year when Covid became nationwide, it was announced that we would continue classes online and I was so happy. Going to school is almost always an unpleasant experience, the students are profane and the teachers are smug. It was terrible for me. So when I found out we were taking online lessons, I thought I was in heaven. Little did I know it was the worst thing ever. When I was held back in 4th grade, it shattered my spirit and passion for academic success. When I was in 8th grade, I saw I had my first A-B on the roll since third grade. The old me woke up, and I was ready to be an academic weapon. I was doing so well in 9th grade and then the pandemic hit. I constantly missed deadlines for assignments and had a severe procrastination problem. I thought I would still push through and maintain my grades, but I did not. I quickly learned that I could not do remote learning for my life. Sitting in front of a screen for almost 7 hours was difficult, and even though I tried so hard to pay attention, I wasn't learning anything. I barely passed 9th grade, and I failed 10th grade. I had to do summer school for the first time and I felt so embarrassed. 11th grade was when we returned to school in person, but it did not differ from being at home, I failed and had to do summer school again. I passed 12th grade with little of a problem, but …show more content…

I had no more ambition, and I graduated high school in 2023 with a 1.8 GPA. I was bound in my room for days and wasting away in bed for hours. I only got up to do my online classes, but sometimes I didn't do that. Time went by fast for me, weeks passed and it only felt like a few hours. When I graduated from high school, I didn’t know what to do. I felt like a failure who got ‘left behind’ and my world seemed to be put on pause. I have seen my friend's social media posts about attending their dream universities and living their freshman life in school. I didn't have that feeling of being ‘left behind’ since 4th grade and going through that again felt ten times worse because I was an adult and didn't have another chance. I was feeling like this for months, wallowing in self-pity and sadness. I had no idea what to do, so I just signed up to take classes at a community college. Over time, I started to feel better about myself, bit by bit. Holding myself down to societal standards of ‘when you are supposed to do something’ is not good for me. I saw a show a few weeks ago titled Hamilton: The Musical, and the song Wait for It has a lyric I attach to my daily life, ‘I am not falling behind or running late’. Even though it is just a song from a musical, when I saw the lyrics it put me through a lot of self-realization. I was someone who always

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