It Is Never Your Fault

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She was told, when he first met her. When he had foreseen the unspeakable outcome. “It is never your fault”, as he said it as if he knew. Though he never had any evil intentions of harming her, he wanted to make sure that she knew, he wanted her to make sure that, whatever shall happen to this relationship, it is all him to blame.

As this boy, he had hid many secrets about himself through out his life. At a young age, he was already in pain, but he did not understood why and how. He was confused, and he was alone. But as he grew, he understood, though he thought he had little time, though he thought that the end was near, he had hope. Despite the physical pain that had embedded him for many years, he endured. He had care for others as well, as well he was a fool. But he didn’t want any of his acquittances or friends to know, because he wanted to blend in as a common individual, where he wanted no one to worry about him, treat him with care, or yet, sympathize for him.

As he grew, the pain grew. As he got to meet and acquainted with many more, he spoke little. He was depressed at times, rather many times, and he was furious at times, or rather many times. Because he could not speak, he could not express his thoughts dearly, because he was afraid. Though he was shy, he wanted to help. He understood their pain, and is afraid to share his. He had listened, and indulged to their pain, and he did help. For many years, the path that he was guided to was difficult. He could not find happiness, none at all. He did not trust anyone, because he was afraid to be in more pain. But all he wanted, was to suffice people’s happiness from his best ability. Even if he didn 't love them, even if he didn’t know them, it helps him. It ease him, becau...

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... to try again with no more weight. But he isn’t selfish because he is hoping, he doesn’t want because he knows she doesn’t want. But he hopes again. Even after they had ended, not receiving a call from her felt awkward. The empty text message inbox, is abnormal for him. He walks the street where they used to walk on together. He blankly stares at the sky that they used to look at together. They say time heals all, but how much more does he have to endure for his heart to be okay? Though he is doing his very best to forget everything, he has nothing to offer her but the truth, if, she ever decides to trust him again. But until then, the words “I long for you”, “I miss you” and “Take care” loses its color. Even if she never felt the same as he did, it was close to where he was. But all he ever wanted, was her to be happy. And yet he failed, and he will continue to fail.

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