Eight lines, that’s what I have, they sit above my left knee. They are a reminder of a mistake I made and one I will never make again. I self-harmed and it did not solve my problem at the time but it taught me a bigger lesson. It taught me that it does not fix your problems and it only hurts those around you and it shouldn't have been an option in the first place. My entire life I have always struggled with depression. I didn’t show any outward signs of it to the world around me until I reached third grade when I told my mom “I don't want to be alive anymore” to which was not handled well. I didn’t get any actual help until the end of eighth grade and the beginning of ninth. I started to see a counselor and started to take medication, it all …show more content…
helped for awhile but toward the end of ninth grade something bad happened. The bad stuff started on October 13th, 2016, that was the day my girlfriend at the time told me she was being raped by her stepfather every night I remember exactly how she told me and exactly how I responded “I'll tell you what's wrong tomorrow… fine, I'll tell you now… let's just say I'm not virgin… and haven’t been” “Wait… how?… did he?...” “Yes… and he has been for the past 6 years ever since 3rd grade…” Now I have always been a very compassionate person, I have always felt the pain of others almost equal or more than they do, and seeing those words killed me.
I broke down into tears, I had now become responsible for helping a rape victim confront her situation and help her recover from it. It was one of the most difficult things I had ever done. This situation combined with the tremendous amount of depression and anxiety I deal with on a daily basis caused my mind to overload, my schooling, my family life, and my social life were all affected very badly, I lost friends, my grades slipped and I became more distant from my family and I became wrapped in …show more content…
self-destruction. Along came December and my stepdad got a new job all the way down in Texas.
My mom made the decision to move there and to have me stay here in Michigan. I had no choice in the matter and there were many fights and issues with this situation but that's not what I'm going to talk about. I felt abandoned and left alone, even though here in Michigan I have the rest of my family my mother was the person I have always lived with, and to have her choose her husband over her first born child hurt me a lot and I now realize that wasn’t the case but it made me feel like she was moving away just to get away from me. That's when I did it, my mind had reached the point of “you can’t do anything right, you can’t make your girlfriend any better, you drove your mom away, you're just a pathetic piece of shit” and because I started thinking that way I started to feel like I deserved to be punished for not being able to help and for driving a parent away. I felt like I deserved pain and
hurt I have always advocated against self-harm, I never understood it, what does it solve? I always thought it was dumb and pointless until the night I snapped. I grabbed my surgical steel pocket knife that could cut through skin like butter and got in the shower and turned the water all the way up so it burned my skin. I sat down and cried as I held the knife to my knee and just pulled. 8 times, the white bathtub and shower now had a red tint. Looking back on it I know it was a mistake but the weirdest part was after I did the first cut I stopped crying. I had realized why people do it, it's a moment of control, you are in control of what's happening. In the end, it still solved nothing. In order I’m mentally ill, I was given a burden too big for my own shoulders, I was abandoned, and then I punished and blamed myself for it all. The experience itself changed me, I realized that it does not solve any of your problems and in no way should anyone blame themselves for bad situations they are in. It gave me a broader perspective when it comes to helping others because I am better able to understand how people feel and think. It also taught me that when you harm yourself you not only harm yourself but you also harm the ones who love you and that is something you try as hard as you can to not do. I will always have eight lines, eight scars to remind me to never make the same mistake again.
I was awful young enough to not fully be aware of the entire situation. What I did know was that I didn’t want to move into a new house, attend a new school, and definitely not live without my dad. Adapting to my new and different surroundings was very hard for me. I was upset with my dad for his actions because he was the cause of all the changes. I was mainly angry with my mom though for her decision. To my eight year old self, I felt as if it wasn’t fair. I was her precious girl and entire world and I knew she would do anything to see my happy. For that particular reason was why i couldn 't comprehend her decision. I wasn 't happy with the outcome, I hoped she would forgive him and we could be a family
Depression can be a scary word in today’s society, not many people know how to react or respond to someone who is depressed. With a lot of support available within communities, depression still remains complicated for people to understand. As a result of this, people try various ways and approaches and are not successful.
Depression is one of the most prevalent mental health conditions in the U.S. that affects, men, women, teens and even the elderly. Most of the time depression goes unrecognized or even untreated. It may be normal for people to experience feelings of sadness or anger for short periods of time. Usually this may last a few days due to temporary circumstances that may happen in an individual’s life, but if these feelings occur for an extended period of time, it may be a sign of major depression. Bipolar disorder may be confused with major depression. An individual having recurring depression and mania for an extended period differentiates bipolar disorder. As a healthcare professional, it is important to educate individuals and their families who have a mental health illness so that they can pay attention to important cues so that they can be addressed properly. This case study refers to a female patient diagnosed with bipolar disorder. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorder (DSM-V) is a publication/diagnostic tool, used by healthcare professionals to diagnose mental disorders (Psychiatry Online, n.d) Bipolar disorder may be confused with major depression. Bipolar disorder is differentiated by an individual having reoccurring depression and mania for an extended period of time. These episodic mood shifts can lead to excessively elevated or irritable mood. Many believe that this disorder can lightly stem from a combination of genetic and non-genetic factors (WebMD, 2014). According to statistics, the average onset for bipolar disorder is in the mid-to late 20s, but over the years the average age has been decreasing. The prevalence of bipolar is approximately 2.6% in the population at large with 82.9% of these cases cl...
This paper introduces a 35-year-old female who is exhibiting signs of sadness, lack of interest in daily activities and suicidal tendencies. She has no interest in hobbies, which have been very important to her in the past. Her lack of ambition and her suicidal tendencies are causing great concern for her family members. She is also exhibiting signs of hypersomnia, which will put her in dangerous situations if left untreated. The family has great concern about her leaving the hospital at this time, fearing that she may be a danger to herself. A treatment plan and ethical considerations will be discussed.
Depression: Cause or Effect? Depression supplies a distinct depiction of the brain, equals behavior theory. The physiological characteristics that taint the diseased brain directly impact the thoughts and behaviors of the millions of sufferers. The genesis of this dehabilitating problem is both mysterious and complicated, and I am not offering any sort of revelation in stating that it is a multi-factorial manifestation involving both biological and environmental components.
“Being depressed is not something that everyone can easily understand. There’s such a stigma that comes along with the term. So many people just see it as some fake, made-up condition that I should just be able to snap out of. What they don’t understand is that it’s not something that I can just will away,” said Katelyn.
It is known that depression is a growing issue, but the question is why it is continuing to affect more and more people, specifically students. It is difficult to pinpoint a specific cause when there are so many theories as to what exactly causes depression. Some argue that it is genetic while others say it is a result of too much stress. This is not to say that there is only one cause of depression, but there has to be a reason why the number of depressed students has been increasing in the recent years.
Major Depressive Disorder, according to Coon, is a mood disorder in which the person has suffered one or more intense episodes of depression. Major Depressive Disorder falls under mood disorders subtopic depressive disorders (Coon 2013). “Psychologist have come to realize that mood disorders (major disturbances in emotion) are among the most serious of all psychological conditions. In any given year, roughly 9.5 percent of the U.S. population suffers from a mood disorder (National Institute of Mental Health, 2011a)” (Coon 2013). I was one of the 9.5 percent. I have decided to write on this topic because I want to understand what causes it. I have been depressed before without medication or counseling and I wanted to know why do you get depressed and how does it impact you. This essay will talk about disorder information, disorder triggers, research on depression, treatment for depression, and theorist’s experiments for Major Depression Disorder.
Depression is quiet. I had learned that at the beginning of high school when all of the sudden, my self-depreciating thoughts had gone silent. The feeling of elation I had experienced that moment was mighty. I felt that it was too good to be true, that there was no way that I had freed myself of the depression I experienced since my childhood. And I was right. I learned that silence was deafening, it was louder than any of the hateful words I told myself.
Traumatic events come in many different ways at many different times of ones life. Mine came on the school bus while I was on my way home from school. The bus had stopped to let a couple kids off and I stood up to throw some trash away. I stood up we were rear ended by a young lady who had been trying to get a bee out of the car and not realized the bus had stopped. I was standing up and the impact caused me to bang into the seat in front of me and the one behind me. I didn’t realize what had happened until moments later when someone said something. As I began to sit down I felt a sharp pain shoot through my body and my heart started to beat rapidly.
Depression is defined as an illness; the feelings of depression persist and interfere with a child or adolescent’s ability to function. Depression can be a very difficult and painful experience that affects not only the individual suffering from it, but also the people around them. There comes a point in some peoples’ lives where social isolation, low energy, sadness, low self-esteem, and the feeling of hopelessness, cannot be taken anymore. The feelings are so strong and persistent, that the victim becomes severely unhappy, which can then result in depression. Clinical depression has many related symptoms trouble sleeping, eating disorders, withdrawal and inactivity, self-punishment, and loss of pleasure. People that are depressed do not like to do things they may usually like to. However, there are many differences between feeling depressed and actually suffering from depression, the disease. Any person feels depressed at some time or another in their life. They feel worthless, tired and tend to want to be alone without human interaction, this is normal. Depression brings on poor concentration or inability to think and make decisions (Kist 26). Surveys that have been taken that show approximately 20 in 100 people suffer from depression at any one time. About one if four Americans will suffer from a depression over the course of their lifetime. Depression strikes men and women of all ages, in all races, but most studies indicate that women are more often afflicted. Depression comes in many different types: major, manic and dysthymia are a few. A chronic, physical illness, drug habit, death of a loved one; or a problem in a marriage cause major depression. Even though most people with major depression will recover, half will suffer another episode (Hales 38). People with severe cases of major depression can’t work, study, or interact and eventually can’t feed, clothe or clean themselves (Hales 38).Manic depression is a type of depression that goes from a person being extremely happy and then becoming severely depressed (Kist 107). Being in a depressed state can be life threatening. People suffering from manic depression show many symptoms. A few major ones are hyperactivity; talking fast, inability, fear of dying, and jumping from one topic to another during a conversation (Kist 39). Another type is Psychoanalysis. Psychoanaly...
Depression is a murky pool of feelings and actions scientists have been trying to understand since the days of Hippocrates, who called it a "black bile." It has been called "the common cold of mental illness and, like the cold, it's difficult to quantify. If feelings of great sadness or agitation last for much more than two weeks, it may be depression. For a long time, people who were feeling depressed were told to "snap out of it." According to a study done by National Institute of Mental Health, half of all Americans still view depression as a personal weakness or character flaw. Depression, however, is considered a medical disorder and can affect thoughts, feelings, physical health, and behaviors. It interferes with daily life such as school, friends, and family. Clinical depression is the most incapacitating of all chronic c...
The silent killer that takes lives without warning, punishment, or any sympathy; depression is truly one of the most prominent mental illnesses in the world. Depression is defined as a mental illness inducing a severe and staunch feeling of sadness. The term depressed is coined in English as a temporary sadness that everyone experiences in their life. Despite that depression is more active in women, it is still one of the most common mental illnesses in the world. It affects anybody, regardless of sex, race, ethnicity, or socioeconomic standing. Regardless of all these facts, surprisingly little is known about depression, however, scientists have been able to hypothesize major causes, effects, and treatments for the disability affecting over
Depression is a serious problem in today’s time world with everyone going through problems of their own, so one should wonder what depression really is. Depression is defined as feeling sad, blue, unhappy, miserable, or down in the dumps. Everyone occasionally feels blue or sad. But these feelings are usually short-lived and pass within a couple of days. When you have depression, it interferes with daily life and causes pain for both you and those who care about you. Depression is a common but serious illness. There are even different types of depression such as persistent depressive disorder, psychotic depression, postpartum, seasonal affective disorder, and etc.
Depression is one of the most common psychological problems. Each year over 17 million Americans experience a period of clinical depression. Thus, depression affects nearly everyone through personal experiences or through depression in a family member or friend.