First They Killed My Father By Loung Ung

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First They killed My Father is a Memoir written by Loung Ung; it details her story of surviving the Cambodian genocide. Loung, now a grown woman, was but five years old at the start of the narrative. The Cambodian genocide took place from 1975 to 1979. During this time more than two-million Cambodians perished due to torture and extreme starvation. This story spans her adolescent life from age five to around the age of nine. Her account begins at her home in Phnom Penh, the Cambodia capital city. Here, she and her family lived a comfortable life being that they belonged to the middle class. Her father, Sem Im Ung, worked for the Cambodian Government. He was able to support the family with any means that he could to make sure they had nice …show more content…

Anyone who came into contact with western influences did not fall under the acceptable view of returning to” year zero”. This prompted the relocation of her and her family under orders of Angkar. Angkar, also known as Angka, is not one singular person or being; it is an idea similar to religion. Angka is a generalized idea made by Pol Pot, who was the leader of the Khmer Rouge. Every action carried out by the Khmer Rouge was in direct correspondence with the idea of this greater being of supremacy. When Loung Ung’s journey begins, she doesn’t quite understand the idea of ‘Angka’; but by the end of her experience she is all too familiar with the abhorrent nature of the Khmer Rouge. Fairly quickly Loung learns the ways of the Angka. She learns to feel inconceivable hatred from the acts that are carried out under the ruling of Angka. “The Angkar has taught me to hate so deeply that I now know I have the power to destroy and kill (Pg. 105).” Her hatred dims the ever-growing grief inside of her for her family and for those around her. An example of this hatred replacing her grief occurs when she stumbles upon a random dead body. Being that everyone was dressed the same she could not tell whether it was a civilian or a Khmer Rouge soldier. Her feelings of hatred help her on her journey so she decided it ‘must’ be a soldier and is therefore not mourning the death nor is she sorry. "I do not in fact know if the body is a civilian or a soldier. Thinking of the body as a civilian makes me think of Pa too much. It is easier to feel no pity for the dead if I think of them as all Khmer Rouge. I hate them all. Holding on to my hate for the Khmer Rouge also allows me to go on living the mundane details of life (Pg. 192).” In one camp that Loung and her sister Chou stayed at, they had a moment to speak of their father’s death. Loung regrets not being able to help him be stronger like

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