I just got home from the vet, except this time I came home without my best friend. I pull my legs underneath me as I sit down on the edge of my bed. Through the large windows across from me, it’s overcast, and the puffy grey clouds grow darker over the ocean. The water stirs as the wind coaxes the waves to grow bigger. The swells build as they move closer to shore. Watching the waves crash on the beach and draw back out, over and over again is meditation. Memories of taking Dakota down to play on the beach come to mind; he loved going down to romp in the waves and chase seagulls ever since he was a puppy. If he hadn’t gotten sick, he would still be out in his favorite place.
I feel the tears forming in the corners of my eyes, and I can’t help
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but let them out. Once the first drop runs down my cheek, it becomes impossible to hold back the rest. The rain starts coming down. Lightly at first, but quickly starts pouring. It pounds on the roof in drumming rhythms. Deep grey clouds completely cover the sky until it is practically black. The swells build as they move closer to shore. Everything is so chaotic and peaceful at the same time.
I knew once Dakota was diagnosed that it would be hard. I cherished every moment of the days we had left together. But as weeks went by, good days became few and far between.
The only light in the dark atmosphere are the sudden flashes of lightning. A thin, bright white flash surrounded by a blueish-purple hue that lasts less than a second. Each strike is followed by a delayed crack of thunder. Like a game, I watch the bolts, and in the hesitation I wait to hear when the thunder will finally sound. The waiting reminded me of him. I knew the day I’d been dreading would be soon, but what I couldn’t prepare myself for was how fast it had come, and the pain that would come with it. Now it was here, and more painful than I imagined it could be.
In the midst of watching, I lay down on my side and pull my soft blanket over my shoulders. My attention focuses on each different part of the storm: the powerful waves, swirling clouds, and quick flashes of lightning. Then the swishing of the wind, clapping of the rain on the house, and the cracks and booms in the air. He suffered so much towards the end; I’m not sure if it hurt more to see him suffer, or to accept the fact that I had to let him go. So many memories of us, good and bad, come to mind; going on long walks along the beach, the day he was diagnosed, napping together in tons of blankets, and seeing his face for the last time. All the pieces come together and are pictured
as a whole. I know he’s in a better place now, where he isn’t suffering or in pain; an idea that gives some peace and tranquility in the middle of the storm around me.
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