Abigail Monologue

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He ran his soft hands over my lower back and moved them down to caress my legs, this sending movement through my upper calves. Being so close to him was ticklish, yet pleasurable… Evolving me to wince at every touch. The pleasurable side almost always overcomes the tingling ticklish side of being in the arms of someone I cared about so much. Just the thought of him- the way his smile lit up his whole face, and how he only smiled that way around me. We spent a lot of time squandering about, but every moment afterwards left you wanting more. When I wasn’t with him, my mind traveled to him. The thought of being surprised that his feelings were mutual had always stuck out. All of his charisma, and quirkiness piled together to make him. Being himself, …show more content…

I hadn’t told anyone about what had happened just Friday night, and I did not plan on doing so either. The sternness of his words- the way he watched me sit and cry... My mind wandered as I found myself in a pile of tears. Abigail. Don’t cry- he didn’t mean it. H-he still loves you. I reassured myself with information I deeply knew was fallacious. I wiped away my tears, and almost laughed at myself as I tried to make it to the kitchen without being seen. Although it was only my oldest brother and mother that were awake, the house seemed like a labyrinth. Unfortunately, I was seen by my younger brother, (surprising to see him up so early) wiping his eyes from drowsiness and yawning somewhat abruptly. I made it to the kitchen, at which point I gave up on being sneaky for I was far too tired for games at that time of the morning. I sat there thinking as I let my elbows use the kitchen counter for support with my very poor posture. I snapped out of my lost thoughts and decided to make some tea. Contemplating over my many choices, I finally narrowed my choices down to two: Yorkshire Gold, or a simple chamomile. I went for the chamomile, but only because without him I felt like the second …show more content…

“Just listen. Please,” only the desperation in his voice made me stay- well I guess that’s not true. Deeply I wanted to hear what he had to say but another side of me wanted t the apology. “Look,” he sounded as though he was on the brink of tears- and lots of them too. “I still love you.I still love you with everything I have. I was drunk and lost that night- I never called you because- because I was scared you would leave me. I’m hopelessly in love with you Abigail, I never wanted to hurt you,” in that moment he sounded so cliche that I wanted to slap him across the face. I noticed him beginning to shake his head. “I know the idiocy of what I just said made you laugh on the inside, but- the dearth of my sleep, I’ve missed you so much, please just-” I thought about it all, and the worst part is that I believed him and the only way to shut him up now, was to well. I leaned as close possible to him and wrapped my hands around his head pushing his soft lips against my own. Suddenly I realized it wasn’t him I ever needed, it was someone at all and my choice was

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