“Personal development is the conscious choice to improve one’s life to become a better person and to grow as an individual” (author unknown, n. d.). As a future counselor, self-awareness and personal development are essential components in understanding how to help others. Without such knowledge, it may be impossible to facilitate change in clients because of one’s own lack of self-awareness. One cannot help others if he or she lacks self-knowledge and fail to achieve his or her own developmental milestones. Therefore, through personal self-reflection, my adult attachment style, racial identity, and moral development will be dissected and explored to gain an understanding of my own personal development. Adult Attachment Development As a 27 …show more content…
year old young woman, the development of my anxiously attached style in relationships stemmed from early childhood experiences. Around the age of three, my father was taken from my home and incarcerated for 12 years, which may have laid the foundation for my attachment style today. One study concluded that if attachment figures are neglectful or unresponsive, security is not achieved and the child develops defensive mechanisms, such as anxiety or avoidance (Martins, Canavarro, & Moreira, 2015). On the same token, the initial attachment representation between the child and adult figure creates mental representations that impacts future behaviors and feelings in adult romantic relationships (Godbout, et al., 2016). Although my mother was actively present in my life, the absence of my father caused me to yearn for his approval. I always tried to excel in every aspect of my life to gain his acceptance. When my father was released from prison, I concluded that we would spend quality time together to make up for all of the missed birthdays, graduations, and recitals. Unfortunately, he failed to make any effort to rebuild our relationship. He mastered the art of empty promises, and left me in the dust of disappointments. Since I was unable to gain his acceptance, even after trying to be the perfect daughter, I sought out such approval from others to validate my identity and self-worth. I had a strong desire to make other people like me, therefore, I became self-critical. People who are anxiously attached engage in such powerful self-correction in order to reduce being disapproved of and gain others’ admiration (Martins, Canavarro, & Moreira, 2015). Moreover, when I am involved in any type of romantic relationship, my self-criticism and insecurities are clearly evident. Because I fear being abandoned again, I use self-criticism as an agent to gain my partner’s respect and approval, while also fearing being too dependent and intimate. Self-criticism allows me to improve on any flaws that my partner points out so he does not abandon me. When I am in a relationship, I constantly worry about the extent my partner will be available to me and display increased anxiety when I have to separate from him. It has been found that people with high scores on attachment anxiety use a hyperactivating strategy that includes doubts about the availability and a strong yearning to attain love and support from their partners (Drenger, Mikulincer, & Berant, 2016). In previous relationships, I exhibited clingy behavior and constantly needed that reassurance and closeness, which unfortunately caused more harm than good. After my last relationship ended, I decided to focus on increasing my self-worth and developing my identity on my own. Racial Identity Development My racial identity as an African American was developed and influenced by various factors throughout my life.
Born to a mother from a small town in Georgia who desired to explore the world, I was exposed to an array of cultures through different arts. Although I have always lived in a predominantly inner city Black environment, I was never consciously aware of my racial identity until about the age of five years old. During this time, I wanted a Caucasian baby doll that was constantly being advertised on my favorite cartoon station. For weeks, I begged my mother to buy me the doll, but she refused to do so. Interestingly, she said that she would buy the Black version of the doll, but I refused. I recall commercials advertising the kids playing with the White dolls; and the Black dolls would appear at the very end of the commercial. Subconsciously, I created a negative schema about being African American. One study discussed how supremacy may produce implicit attitudes in Black youth and exert a power on them at the subconscious level (Craemer, 2015). After my mother realized how distraught I had become over not being able to have the White doll, she bought African American dolls, books, toys, etc. She would constantly remind me of my African American heritage and culture, while trying to instill dignity and pride in my racial …show more content…
identity. Additionally, my racial identity development was also shaped by an experience with a lighter complexion girl, with long wavy hair. I was about six or seven years old, and this particular girl was in my class. I had a big crush on a boy, who never even noticed me. However, he had a crush on the lighter complexion girl. In fact, it appeared that all of the boys liked this particular girl, and I just could not figure out the reason. Then finally one of my friends informed me that everyone likes the girl because she had light skin and long hair. Unfortunately, I internalized the idea that my darker complexion and kinkier hair was not the definition of beautiful. In order to be beautiful, I needed to have long hair and lighter skin. My racial identity was shaped by this negative schema that was engrained in my mind for many years. Nevertheless, the development of my racial identity was also influenced by a visit to a small town in Georgia where my mother was born. Because of slavery and rape, many members of my mother’s side of family are fair skin, with blue and green eyes. I distinctively remember visiting my great aunt, who had typical White features, and being in awe of her. I thought she was so beautiful compared to my darker complexion. On one occasion, my family and I were sitting on the porch, and my great aunt made the most insensitive and painful comment that I had ever heard, stating, “Sade, you are pretty for a dark skinned girl.” Those words stung and tore down my self-esteem to another level. Although my mother quickly defended me, the words had already helped create a negative schema about my racial identity even further. For a period of time after this incident, I considered myself to be unattractive because of my complexion, and longing to have my mother’s lighter complexion. Based on the racial identity development model, such attitude of self-deprecating falls under the conformity stage (Atkinson, Morten, & Sue, 1993). Furthermore, throughout my primary school years, my speech became a part of my racial identity. My mother constantly encouraged and taught me to speak proper grammar, which appeared to bother my fellow classmates in inner-city schools. According to them, I spoke and acted White because of my proper grammar and demeanor. The accusation of acting White occurs when African American youth’s racial identity is not black enough, according to their peers (Murray, Neal-Barnett, Demmings, & Stadulis, 2012). Some studies found that feelings of belonging increased the risk for minority youth to internalize disorders, such as anxiety (Murray, et al., 2012). Unfortunately, I incorporated the idea of acting White into my racial identity, which caused me to be conflicted between accepting the notion that White is right and Black is wrong. On one hand, I was taught to appreciate my race and culture; but on the other hand, speaking and acting White caused me not to be Black enough. It was a confusing time for me during my primary school years, which made me fall under the dissonance stage of the racial identity development model (Atkinson, Morten, & Sue, 1993). However, when I progressed into high school, my outlook on my racial identity changed as I was exposed to more culturally aware individuals. Through ethnic clubs and association with other African Americans, I was able to finally appreciate my heritage and felt a true connection to my fellow racial members. Moral Development Growing up in a religious household, learning between right and wrong led my behavior and decisions.
Based on Kohlberg and Piaget’s stages of moral development, I experienced the various levels of ethical behaviors throughout my life. First, exploring Piaget’s heteronomous morality and Kohlberg’s stage one of the preconventional level, I can recall being the model child of good behavior. My behavior was shaped by my mother and other authoritative figures. I possessed a strong fear of being punished if I broke any rules. When I was about seven years old, I vividly remember my afterschool friends trying to decide if we should walk to the corner store on the other street, or walk to the store that was a couple of houses away from us. We were not supposed to leave our street ever; but that day, my friends wanted to try something different. I tried to convince them that we should stay with our store out of fear of getting in trouble by my mother and babysitter. Needless to say, we walked to the next street’s corner store, and I felt extremely guilty in doing so. My guilt was so strong that I actually told on all of us because I felt that we needed to be punished. I was the follower of all rules, with no questions asked. Furthermore, Kohlberg’s individualistic orientation delves into the best interest of the child, at the limited expense of helping others. In other words, the child may reason how he or she will benefit from meeting the needs of others (Broderick & Blewitt, 2015).
As a young girl, I always enjoyed helping my mother with daily chores, such as washing dishes or sweeping. However, as I approached puberty, around 11 years old, my mother demanded that I continue to do chores. By this time, I had lost my excitement in helping out with the chores; therefore, I constantly complained and gave my mother a hard time. The following week or so, I had a discussion with one of my friends, who informed me that she gets an allowance for doing chores. Right away, I asked my mother if I could receive an allowance for doing chores, and she agreed. In a sense, my mother scratched my back, as I scratched hers. Nonetheless, Kohlberg’s stage three of the conventional level focuses on seeking out approval from others and avoiding disapproval (Broderick & Blewitt, 2015). When I moved to a new town and enrolled in a new school, I exhibited the social-relational perspective. Since I did not have any friends and wanted to be accepted, I tried to be extremely nice to everyone. I was fortunate enough to make a few good friends, and also gain respect from my peers. However, reflecting back to that time, I do not believe that many of my actions were genuine; instead, I put on a façade in order to gain approval. The next stage of the conventional level deals with member-of-society perspective. During this stage, obeying rules is valued in order to maintain order in society (Broderick & Blewitt, 2015). As a young adult, I always considered myself a law-abiding citizen because of societal rules, and never questioning its authority. However, as I am becoming more aware of today’s racial issues, I noticed that some of society’s rules do not coincide with my own beliefs and principles, which places me in Kohlberg’s level three postconventional stage. With the recent surge of African American murders by White police officers, I question social conventions. If society was just, I would assume that White police officers, and officers in general, would be accounted for their actions; but they are able to walk away freely from murder. People place so much trust in officers who are meant to serve and protect; however, many African Americans, especially, are living in fear when approached by police officers. My moral development within this stage was initially spurred by the murder of my cousin on his wedding day by police officers over a decade ago. When the verdict was delivered that none of the police officers would be accounted for their actions, I concluded at that moment that society may not be set up for African Americans and other minorities. In other words, society rules are not meant to protect us, even if we followed them perfectly. Therefore, many minorities have declared war on police officers, which is typically against the law. But society and the justice system has failed minorities to the point where they are now following their own laws. Although violence is never the answer, I understand minorities’ recent actions against police officers. Conclusion Overall, my personal development was shaped by an array of life altering experiences. First, my adult attachment of anxiously attached was created by my father’s lack of presence in my life. Even when he had the opportunity to rebuild our relationship, he failed me, which affected how I connected with future romantic partners. Nonetheless, the development of my racial identity was affected by the media, family, and peers. Because of my low self-esteem, I developed a self-deprecating attitude. Lastly, my moral development gradually developed into Kohlberg’s postconventional stage, where my principles do not coincide with society’s rules. Ultimately, reflecting on my development will assist in learning about my client’s development as it relates to their overall wellbeing.
I noticed in Piaget stages of moral development Kevin is in the autonomous morality stage. Kevin has realized the rules at school and standards can be negotiated and or changed because his parents can get the school to change the rules or policies for his benefit. On Kohlberg’s stage Kevin, his behaviors can be related to the conventional level stage 4. Broderick and Blewitt describes Kohlberg’s conventional morality as “what is right depends on other’s approval or on the need to maintain social order” (pg. 261). Kevin’s peers react to his negative behaviors is effecting his moral
Morality, which is one’s general standards about right and wrong behavior, also includes prosocial behavior and other traits such as honesty, fairness, and concern about other people’s rights and welfare (Omrod, 2014). Both morality and prosocial behavior involve multiple parts of the brain, emotions and complex reasoning abilities. Some age-typical characteristics for preschool aged children include, some understanding that behaviors causing physical or psychological harm are morally wrong, a sense of guilt and shame about misbehaviors that cause harm to others, also display empathy and sympathy, and children at this age also show an appreciation for the need to be fair.
It is important for a counselor to be culturally competent. This is not always an easy task because there are a lot of different cultures with different values. The Racial/ Cultural Identity Development Model was created to help counselors understand their culturally diverse clients more. This model has five levels: conformity, dissonance, resistance and immersion, introspection, and integrative awareness. In this essay I am going to describe these levels and how it can impact the counseling process.
At a young age, I already internalized so much self-hatred because of the color of my skin and hair. I struggle with this immensely since I’d watch Disney movies, that only popularize one racial demographic, and the only person that I could semi look up to was Princess Jasmine from Aladdin. But there was no real representation of minorities when I was growing up, so I strived like any other person would to be a Disney princess. I always asked my mom to put weave in my hair or do something with it, so I could have long flown hair like Princess Ariel, from The Little Mermaid movie, or strive to look as beautiful as Princess Aurora when she was sleeping. And I continued to struggle with these ideas that what is beautiful was to be white. And I just couldn 't comprehend at the time, that I was already beautiful just the way I am. It wasn’t until I got to high school, where I somewhat shed these ideas on what was beautiful. I just realized that the media and the movies are essentially fake and photoshopped. And the models for the tv and magazines were too boney and hungry. I got used to my curves and by the body by that time. But I didn’t really show forth pride for my melanin nor color. I just accepted the fact that I was black and born that way. I didn’t realize how rich and important my color is as well as my culture. It was until I started school, here in the University of Boston,
These studies say that all actions have a goal in mind. That would affect how children develop moral standards as well. An example of this would be, if a child knew that they were to get rewarded for things similar to potty-training or preforming well in school then they would try to do their best. The child would carry these lessons with them as they grow and mature. In this paper we will be discussing Kohlberg’s theory of moral development, giving insight into what other factors may affect the development of morality, and dissecting parenting placing emphasis on parenting and its effects that it may have. We will also be coving theories that challenge Kohlberg’s and bringing to light what Kohlberg may have missed or
I am not sure on this one but, I find myself maybe in the Disintegration stage. This stage states that the person be transformed into contended over dis-solvable racial incorruptible problems in many instances anticipated as polar opposites (Farley, 2012). I agree with some of the criteria in this stage. I am not racist. I love all colors and do not see any race that is more superior to the other. When we all leaves this world we will be all place 6ft under buried under ground. I do not care what race my child decides to marry but, longest it is the opposite sex according to the Bible. All men are created equal and every individual has the same opportunity to be successful in life with hard work and dedication. Disagree with Black men being
When I was younger my parents would read me fairy tales about the Disney princesses and how the man would rescue the woman, they would fall in love and live happily ever after. Obviously as I child I would think of love that way. I though you would meet a strong handsome man he would save you whenever you were in trouble, you fall in love marry, and live happily ever after. When I was in second and third grade the Cheetah girls movie came out and they were very popular. They had this song called Cinderella and the lyrics said “that fairy tale life wasn’t for me…I don’t want to be like Cinderella waiting for a guy to rescue me I rather rescue myself.” I remember singing that song when I was eight and nine and as I grew older I started to see
Growing up for me some would say it was rather difficult and in some ways I would agree. There have been a lot of rough times that I have been through. This has and will affect my life for the rest of my life. The leading up to adoption, adoption and after adoption are the reasons my life were difficult.
A human being, such as all organisms, learns to do things such as walking and talking at a very young age. After this time of physical development, the child will be ready to develop even more by strengthening other aspects such as the brain. Being able to think for oneself is essential for any human in order to become an active member of society. Once basic thinking is developed, it will be time to start learning how to develop the morals of a person. This kind of development is done in stages and “people cannot progress to higher stages of moral development until they have also progressed through higher stages of understanding how to think, reason, remember, and solve problems” (Frick-Horbury 1). The most effective way to achieve development is by role-playing and showing the child in undeveloped ways they would understand. “The person’s understanding of the situation must be actively charged by using situations within a person’s own experience and chaining them to the event at hand” (Frick-Horbury 4). For example, a child will not care if they take another child’s toy away, but once that toy is taken away from the first child, they will feel what the other child felt and have a better understanding of why snatching the toy was wrong. As the child grows, they will experience more of these kinds of situations, strengthening their moral
On Day 4 Don-egg started pre-school, but he loved his parents too much and did not want to see us leave. This was perfectly normal for a child of his age, so we set him up with a smartphone to video call us anytime he missed us. This behavior of not wanting to leave us is because Don-egg is in the preconventional stage of Kohlberg’s theory of moral development. This stage is highlighted by a child’s want to avoid punishment. The teacher at his preschool most likely punishes Don-egg a lot, so he would rather stay with us who love and support
Kohlberg’s theory of the stages of moral development has gained some popularity despite being controversial. The claim that the levels form a “ladder,” the bottom being the immature child with a pre-conventional level and the top being a post conventional ethical individual. The sequence is unvarying and the subject must begin at the bottom with aspirations to reach the top, possibly doing so. (7) Research confirms that individuals from different cultures actually progress according to Kohlbergs theory, at least to the conventional level. Kohlberg’s stages of moral development continue to provide a foundation for psychology studies of moral reasoning. (6)
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Jean Piaget (1932) is among the first of psychologists who embraced the touchy issue of morality, and more specifically, the development of morality in children. To summarize his findings, children’s view of morality undergoes many changes as they age, the most important of these beginning around age ten. Essentially, what Piaget uncovered is that a series of changes occur between the ages of 10 and 12, just when the child begins to enter the general stage of formal operations, and intellectual development continues to develop until at least age sixteen. Therefore, a child’s view ...
Personal Development is a lifelong process that involves the assessment of current skills and talents and the enhancement of oneself based on that assessment which then leads to the realization of goals and an improved quality of life. To be able to assess yourself, you need to be able to reflect on your past which helps you to understand the attitudes you have developed and the foundation that you will be building your life on. Also, you have to reflect on your present to see if there’s room for improvement and reflect on your future so that you can achieve your aspirations.