I woke up in the strangest place. I wasn't sure if I was dead, or just hallucinating. I ran to my house, in hopes to see my dad. I wasn't really "hoping" to find him, and if I did, I was praying to myself that he would be sober. I know what would happen if he wasn't; hitting. I opened the screen door, but didn't see my father. I'm surprised because he was here when I left to go to the game with Austin.
Austin, oh Austin. Austin was my only friend at school. Well, until he ditched me to go to a dumb party with his high school friends. He was the reason that I left the game. Speaking of which, I don't seem to remember anything after leaving the game, mad. Why can't I remember anything?
Anyways, after I walked into the door, the house felt...different.
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I know it's weird to say, but I could feel my mom's presence in the house. It's almost as if she was right there. But, that's impossible, Mom died two weeks ago. She had been battling cancer for a couple of years. But, unfortunately, that battle had to end. And my mother was the unlucky loser. Cancer is an ugly thing. It tears families apart, tears, restless nights, trips to the hospital at 3 am some nights because there was something wrong with her. I spent more nights in the hospital side by side with my mom than I did at home. My mom always told me to be strong, and I tried, but none of my friends at school understood why I looked so groggy when I went to school most mornings. In fact, the school guidance counselor talked to me a few times and asked if I was okay. "Oh yeah, my mom is dying from breast cancer, yeah, I'm doing real great" I would occasionally say to her. I hate school so much.
I am what you would say "popular" at school with the girls. I guess you could also say I was a "mean girl", meaning I would pick on kids, and start drama, and for some reason I liked it. But once my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer, I started to get depressed and tired everyday, sometimes wondering if it would be better if I didn't even wake up the next day. Then, all my friends turned on me. They kicked me out of their little "group" of theirs. They would start to be mean to me, and make cruel jokes about my mom having cancer. "Yo mama so dumb she gave herself breast cancer...oh wait...haha sorry Lorena totally forgot that your mom has cancer. Oh well, she's probably faking it to get money from people." they would always say to me.
I start to tear up and cry a little, but hold it back. Dad says tears are for the weak. If he saw me crying, another beating would sure be in it for me. I expected to see my dad on the couch, with a beer, watching football, or gambling with his friends and smoking weed. But, there is no smell of either of that in the house. Weird. Since there is no trace of my dad anywhere in the house, I decide to go up to Mom's secret room where she would sneak away when she wanted to be alone. Not to get away from dad, because Dad didn't drink or smoke weed when Mom was alive. Dad was fine before all of
this. I walked into her room, and boy, does it smell like my mom. I haven't been down here since she died. I saw her diary lying on the table. I pick it up. Her tattered up black journal, sitting in my hands, I just had to read it. I open up to one page, worried if I should read it or not. I set it back down, almost in tears. "Lorena?" says a voice. I turn around. "Mom?"
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At 10, I never knew whether my father would be sober, reasonable, even pleasant - or drunk, argumentative and abusive. On one February day with four inches of snow on the ground and a freezing rain falling, I was walking home from my cousin's house in the early evening and saw my father lying on the soggy, snow-covered sidewalk. I didn't know what my father would do if I roused him, and I was afraid to find out. Perhaps, subconsciously, I hoped my father wouldn't waken at all. I continued on, did nothing, said nothing. This I will remember with guilt for the rest of my life.
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