How Does Holden Show Grief

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Laila Khonsari Ms. Zindulis Introduction to Literature & Composition 4 December 2023 Holden’s Experience of Grief Kicked out of three boarding schools and alienated from his family, Holden Caulfield, the main protagonist in J.D. Salinger’s The Catcher in the Rye, is a troubled teenage soul. His deep depression stems from the death of his brother Allie, which propels him down a painful path of grief and self-discovery. Holden’s experience of grief demonstrates that in order to take care of his mental health and reach a place of acceptance where he can feel happy again, he needs to stop attempting to numb his emotions and isolate himself from those who love him. Holden’s reaction to Allie’s death is raw and visceral, as his sadness morphs into …show more content…

Holden has an extremely hard time living with the weight of his emotions; instead of talking about how he feels, he buries them deep inside of himself. Holden describes packing “a snowball with [his] bare hands” (36), similar to how he deals with his painful emotions. His “bare hands” (36) represent the same weapon he used to break all the windows in his garage the first night of Allie’s death, and feeling the pain of the frigid snow on his exposed hands is a sharp reminder of his grief. In response to this pain, he starts to throw the snowball at a parked car but changes his mind because the “car looked so nice and white” (36). Holden quickly refrains from throwing the snowball because he does not want to ruin something pure and beautiful. Instead, he begins “packing [the snowball] harder” (36), symbolizing the action of him packing his emotions deep down inside of him. The connection between the snowball and Holden’s feelings serves as a metaphor for his inner conflict and his inability to enclose his own weakness and shield himself from the world around …show more content…

The Holden realizes that the carousel continues to move up and down without coming to a halt, like the ups and downs of life. By embracing this metaphor, Holden accepts the necessity to keep moving forward and pushing past this low point in his life. When it begins to rain, instead of feeling pain in his hand like before, Holden sits “around on the bench for quite awhile” (212) and “[gets] soaked” (213). But this time, he “didn’t care” because “[he] felt so damn happy” (213). Holden’s hand being pain free reveals that he is finally coming to terms with Allie’s death. The carousel scene highlights not only the inevitability of change but also the possibility of healing and enjoying life in the future despite the rain or sadness of his loss. This understanding allows Holden to throw away his unhealthy coping mechanisms and finally accept Allie’s death. As the novel closes, the evolution of Holden’s character shows tremendous growth during adolescence. The death of his brother forces Holden to face the hard realities of life and

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