Bread Givers: Sara's Independence

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A residence often has a very different meaning from a home. Where a person grows up and the people that surround him/her can have a tremendous impact on one’s adulthood. Throughout the novel, Bread Givers, Sara’s idea of home has a significant influence on her feelings and actions. The opposition she has faced from her father constantly causes Sara to question her decisions. However, the solace Sara experienced from her mother and sisters can serve as a comforting reminder of her childhood. While Sara struggles to achieve her independent identity, the companionship she once knew continuously draws her back to her oppressive home. From a young age, Sara developed a sense of comfort in her home. It was where she grew up with people that she …show more content…

While living on her own, Sara adapts to her newly found independence in ways that demonstrate the desire for her roots. When Sara begins to cook and eat by herself every day, she feels “a longing [...] for the old kitchen in Hester Street. Even in [the] worst poverty, [they] sat around the table together, like people. Even Father’s preaching and Mother’s worrying made mealtimes something higher than mere eating and filling the stomach” (173). Though Sara’s family often had a shortage of food, they suffered in poverty together. Now, Sara feels as if she has no one. Again, when she starts to feel a loss of company after rejecting Max Goldstein, she desires the companionship of yet another negative man in her life; her father. Now she sees him as “rich with the sap of centuries...his words of wisdom….he seemed….like Isaiah, Jeremiah, Solomon, and David, all joined together in the one wise old face. And this man with all the ancient prophets shining out of his eyes -- father” (202-203). Sara’s lonely life has made her forget the negativity and adversity of her father’s beliefs. She has forgotten the harm of her home, which subconsciously lures her back to it. When Sara finishes night school and moves on to college, this ache for community finds her again. She goes to a freshmen dance and after, concludes that “[e]ven in college, [she] had …show more content…

No matter how hard she tries to separate herself from her family, she still feels an obligation to take care of them. When she was younger, Sara believed “[she] could escape [home] by running away” (295), but when she visits her father, she “realized that the shadow of the burden was always following [her], and here [she] stood face to face with it again” (295). Sara no longer views home as merely a location, but a sense of tradition that had been enforced by her father. Over the years, her father put his family through poverty and caused anguish for Sara and her sisters because of his unwillingness to stray from Jewish traditions. Sara developed a loathing toward her father and left him after he was cheated by the grocery store owner. However, Sara's anger and hatred toward her father dissipates once she understands that he is a true part of her. The values and ideals he always tried to impose upon her are the legacy of generations before him. Sara realizes that she had gained everything from him regardless of her hatred and therefore maintains her sense of family obligation. In understanding the motives of her father’s actions, Sara learns to love herself and the duty she feels toward her family. She concludes that she could no longer hate herself by hating her father, “Can I hate my arm, my hand that is part of me? [...] If

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