Unjust Expectations: A Personal Analysis

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During these past existential crises I have identify many self-harming and unhealthy patterns in my life. Characteristics that I used to be proud of, like being very critical and always having high expectations, I am trying to move away from. Being critical is an excellent quality in some aspects, but not how I was practicing it. I liked that when I met new individuals I could easily “figure them out” and I would store them in specific categories based on their weakness and strengths. Recently I realize that I would place some of my love in exceptional categories attached to unjust expectations. For my loved ones that I hold to great expectations, I would expect their very best and push them to always act their very best. Well when it came …show more content…

Even though, you are one of my dearest friends and I love you so much, our friendship has being a little turbulent. There are many examples in which you would share something with me and I would react negatively. Most of those times I was confused by your actions and I would be extremely critical. In those occasions, I would have a big and critical WHY question in my brain which I probably communicated through my actions. I now realize that I had being carrying unrealistic and unjust expectations of you. Instead, I should of reached with compassion and be more …show more content…

Honestly, I am still trying to understand why I have done what I have done and said all those hurtful things. I have being asking myself these questions since the first time that I got drunk in San Francisco. The one time I said something about you having a miserable life. Up to that moment, I had never done something alike, then it keep repeating and every time it would happened I would feel so wicked about myself and I would imagine the end of our friendship. That first time in San Francisco before leaving the first bar I remember that we shared our struggles and I was amazed by your resistance. Learning that you had overcome so many challenges I immediately admired you and a new kind of respect for you was born. I felt that I could share anything with you and you wouldn’t act like most people, with pity or blindly admiration. When we returned from San Francisco I remember telling Jocy how proud I was of having you as my friend and how much I admire you. When you reminded me of what I had said “give me one second and you can go back to your miserable life” it took me by surprise. I admire and respect your life. I sincerely think that you are a beautiful human being with an incredible capacity of resisting and adopting to change. I see you as a ponderosa and because of this I think that you have a beautiful

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