Who Is Flawed-Personal Narrative

Shattered, broken, and mentally tired. I detested living with all the cruel things that life could bring. I felt like a wolf trying to catch its prey lying in ambush. There was absolutely no hope for me. All of my dreams had been destroyed. Friendships were ruined, and love did not exist for me. As a young girl, I grew up in a place where if two or three were gathered, someone would be in the midst, someone who is filled with hope, someone who is filled with love and passion. A simple prayer would even cause Him to show His manifested power. I entered the moment with anticipation. I had a hunger and a thirst that only He was able to satisfy. My grandmother had taught me that in His presence bodies are healed, broken dreams are restored, and

lives are transformed---with Him all things are possible.
In the year of 2014, I decided to be delivered from all things that were debilitated and become one with a man who is above all-Jesus. Everything began to change my life drastically. While in ministry, I struggled with being misunderstood, misrepresented, misused, talked about, and criticized. Family, friends, and people who claimed to be “Jesus Walkers” often told me that “Girl, you know you ain’t saved.” They completely made a mockery out of me by bringing up things I had done in my past.
One day, there was this huge party going on, and I knew that everyone would be there.

I was disgusted and weakened from all of the rude remarks I had been getting throughout the week. Later that night, I decided to go, but something just wouldn’t allow me to. A man whom I had never seen before approached me and said, “what’s a girl like you doing at a place like this?’ Offensively, I responded by saying, “What do you mean? Everyone else is here, so why can’t I be here?” He said, “No, this is not a place for you. Go home.” I became angry with him, and I kept refusing to go home. Calmly, he was steady pleading for me to go home, and suddenly, he disappeared. Five minutes later, my uncle saw me and made me go. I was very upset. Around 1:00 A.M, I heard many different sirens coming from up the street. I ran up the road, anxious to see what was happening. When I arrived at the scene, I discovered that three people had been shot badly. Immediately, I began to thank God for protecting, sheltering, and having His angels to watch over me. I learned that being in ministry was not for the faint at heart. I could not wear my feelings on my shoulders or even think that ministry was all about how I felt. When you are truly of the Kingdom of God, some things are just non-negotiable.
Not everyone believes in God. In fact, if He is to stand before the people today, they would still deny that He isn’t real. Believing is personal faith. It is hard to change people’s faith and beliefs by knowledge.

I do not spend time trying to find proof of God’s existence because His Son, Jesus Christ, is living proof. In reality, I cannot see the air, but I know that it exists because I am still breathing. Every time I see food, I know that someone had to prepare it. Faith is the ultimate substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things I can’t see.
As one of His Disciples, understand you have to be shaped like Christ to have a Kingdom mindset. Check your motive: Why do you attend church, and why do you want to be saved? Do not follow the trends of others, but set your own. I didn’t accept a change to have a title, or become famous, or to get a place in a building. I changed because I wanted a deeper revelation, a greater impartation, and a clear manifestation of who God is. For the bible tells me that there is important work to be done in the Kingdom, and only a few are able to do it. I knew that God was everything to me and not just one dimensional. He was multicasting and omnipotent in all of His power. I knew that God could be whatever I need whenever I needed him. He showed me how to walk in purity, in holiness, and in love! So whenever I am asked what I have done to make a change in my life, I respond by saying “I got saved”!