What Does It Mean To Be A Christian?

I was baptized at the age of eight. As a child I understood it as apart of what everyone in my family has done. I knew that it made them happy and that it was important to go to church and be good. Only until today, do I even understand partially what being baptized meant for me that day. Today, I strive to fully commit myself to the lord in all of my ways to make sure that i fulfill the truth I had in that moment. Until this past year I did not truly understand what it meant to be a christian. I now know that there is a difference between just believing in God and wanting to love him so much that you are willing to be obedient and do everything he tells you to. Currently I am trying to devote myself to him, and become so close to him that

I want to be his first, so that everything else in my life will align according to his plan.

The moment I trusted God as my Lord and savior was toward the end of last year. I found a new church home at my own will because I just had an urge to really go to church. I found this church simply because the sign they had near the building caught my attention and thought it'd be good to see what it had to offer. As soon as I went there I felt nothing but warm welcomes and a feeling as if i had came home. However, as I started to attend church more regularly, I realize that I was wavering with my dedication to God. I claimed I loved him, but wouldn’t go to church just to hang out with some friends. I did not pray often, or even every day. And i rarely read the bible. Then one day I went to church, and the song ‘Something about the name Jesus” began to play. That was the first time I experienced the essence of God, of Jesus in his glory and magnificence. It’s as if I had no strength in my legs, and in the moment the song said “jesus” i feel to my knees. I started to cry, out of sadness for all the wrong I’ve done against the lord and out of happiness to know that because of Jesus’