Wartime Monologue

TWINFLAME

-There becomes a moment in your life when time tends to fade as a past memory until you completely realize that up till now you just live in the past which means you haven’t live at all-. This thought has opened my eyes to the inevitable reality. I look at the cracked high ceiling and really don’t know who I was for about thirty strange seconds. I can’t even imagine how the past shapes my life for the last eighteen years. I feel that I just skipped the worst part of my life. And now I believe that time itself had erased my memory. You think it strange, but it had.

The first time we met is the last time we saw each other. I remember when the rushing water flooded the lands with such a din. This would be the last huge catastrophe.

Many people couldn’t be found after this disaster. My body was found in the far-off distant land. They thought I had to be dead but I had not. The localed inhabitant made me into their family. They taught me how to live with mother nature. They call this island ‘Taygeta’.
Here, my eyes stare firmly at the dozen of constellations. Thinking how long I have adapted with this new situation, these people, this new language, this way of life. The last three days were filled with training on how to identify an eatable plant. Those days rushed along without my attention. The reason was simply about my homesickness, my loved one who I don’t know where she is. But then I tried to swallow my anxiety and put on a calm face.
I can feel love in the air, love that people radiate. We live in harmony here, no greed, no hatred. There’s nothing here but love. One of the elder asks me if I’m attracted to one of his daughters thus he will prepare to set the marriage. I look at his daughters, my eyes stop at the youngest girl. The elder then explains that I cannot marry her yet. She’s still sixteen. I can marry her in the next seven months when she reaches seventeen. That is the rule here.
I don’t know for sure why the elder’s conviction is so strong. He believes that I am predestined to marry his youngest daughter. I don’t agree with him. I mean, I just looked at all his daughter and suddenly stopped at the youngest one. Was it all just a coincidence ?
Feeling returns to my body, followed by a sense of panic.

I was asphyxiated. I am in the session of past-life regression with all the shamans here. Once again, I try to be relaxed and follow the instruction of the elder. I enter my sub-consciousness and gaze at the frames of each lifetime. I choose the last frame, this must be my last memory before I came to Taygeta. I half expect to meet the girl whom I saw before the flood, but as I clearly see the face of the shadowy girl, it turns into the face of the elder’s youngest daughter. Then I am pulled out from the frame and I wake slowly, blinking out the pink tones of a coming twilight that filters through the window. The session is finished. The elder says that the only thing keeping me from the chance at fulfilling my life’s purpose is her, my twinflame. I should’ve known that all of it wasn’t just a coincidence. Soon, I discover that the girl whom I met before the flood had incarnated here a year after I came to Taygeta. She is my Twinflame, Lana. The youngest girl of the elder’s family. This is what made the elder was so sure with the plan of marriage. Accepting this new island had been difficult while living with no one to hold. But now, I just want to live in this moment, the perfect time with Lana. My

Twinflame.