The Silent Parade Analysis

"beibshasbeenculturecommitted" pt II: the silent parade

shrunk by slick rick

justin began to be confused, with conflict and what he grew up believing his culture really was, seeing things he disagreed with, being around others and seeing how and what he was taught, that all people were equal, to then watch a contradiction/hyprocrisy of that not being fully practiced by most toward most in need, but it not being fully controlled by people on both sides or managed well by those most in need, either. the middle is exactly where you can see that from as a vantage point. instead of staying out of it, feeling a need to be in it. not fully seeing the consequence of it all for the whole pie. like stepping between two worlds. and there's a large

parade on both sides. each marching for what they want what and who they believe, superficially or underneath. interrupted by a english fellow, white, who took slick in when he was deported following some time after doing his bid. he saw the execs that pushed him out the door. he heard the chatter, insults and laughter of being washed up and unable to command a budget regardless of the stages he could or size in a market then dominated by the likes of a mase, dmx, the fugees and bad boy entertainment. he calls justin a brave bloke and disappears.

interpersonal discipline when you have two individuals on different levels of being able to regulate their choices that affect themselves and the other person naive or sophisticated in one way or another, affect and temperament emotionally, behavior that includes communication ability and consistency that strengthens or weakens discontinues rapport between individuals or within a group of three or more. heirarchy, rank and some form of civility, disciplinary order and structure was constructed to resolve the potential for conflict to that respect and all having to interact, transact and co-exist otherwise within an environment, in adherence to what is supposed to mutually agreed upon with law, ettiquette, policy in a business, workplace or institution and spoken or unspoken rule of household.

what is ironic is the profession that all should have second chances, and a way up the socioeconomical stratus then learn observe and watch the same society directly and indirectly disgrace one's ability to do so, no matter their situational circumstance and resource surplus, watch many who struggle or fail to lift themselves and their family above a certain class, those who can misjudge them and those if they somehow could or never had to.

this is before documentaries, politics and other forms of media attempts to educate, inspect or remind the societal whole of both ends of casuality and consequences which arise due to distrubtion of labor, resource granted, afforded and possessed or not and how individuals, families and institutions bear the burden of perfect management amonsgt a populace on a daily continuum.

slick is briefly asked by his wife of many years, mandy, if the two of them are alright. slick nods and she waves at justin, who waves back. she leaves.

slick: have you ever felt like a

racist?

biebs: like in what way?

slick: (stares at the floor) "ok. what do you think is racist that whites do to others in our world today?

biebs: didn't you say that what whites do, others do as well all over the world?"

slick: (slight grin) "sharp. you are paying attention. i did."

biebs: yes, so why is everything always so one-sided is a better question.

slick: "are you asking me?"

biebs: nah, i was saying it to myself.

i feel that it's caused by two things. first, all people keep score of everything that happens in this world and who does what. no matter who the grand wizards are or those accused of this, found guilty of that or speculated upon the third. that's one. the other thing is, the media is involved in it all like an instigator that "informs" play by play like marv albert callin' a basketball game, which arouses feelings, breaks order and attention. ppl's days stop. they see a headline in a paper or emphasized on a blog like huff post or on tv news channels repeat on a loop a tragedy like trayvon being killed or natural disaster like in haiti and every reaction that follows like fans burning lebrons jersey after he left town in cleveland. that affects lives and culture. most times it is like a rivalry of the red sox/yankees or duke-carolina. and ppl on either side say offensive and defensive things to races of the other side, which divides the same way they come together for say, a 9/11 or relief efforts for hurricane sandy in new york or boston

bombing.

slick: (nods head) "yeah, but what makes someone racist?"

beibs: i feel history up to that point in time does and what is not wanted in the future. anybody can be a racist. we look at racism in a screwed up way. i know what racism is, but what ppl call racism is to me bigotry. you never hear ppl say that word. like they call jealousy, what they should see is really envy. history gets in the way, because nobody on either side ever wants to fully forgive and try to forget. they wait and see. wait, watch small progresses with forgiveness, but forget the second a trayvon martin happens. another thing i see when my manager told me to stop inviting girls to my rooms after shows. he talked about my behavior always being watched, even when i think i'm not being. i feel like a whole race every time i say something not meant to offend and it is judged as that even if i apologize. it's like i never had black friends or never had millions of days i never said anything offensive. they take this moment to inspect the whole side of race i just got born into to point fingers and curse at the example. add to their "score." which is kinda creepy, because, y'know (coughs blowing smoke out)...i started to feel paranoid if i saw a pap or some fan just staring from a distance at me during promo leg of the cycle or seeing the same looking fan...like them having a similar look or outfit at shows or by my hotel or even driving! i used to think a year ago, this black dude was following me in la. but, i would feel the same way if the guy was white and kept seeming to be where i was when ridin' around...take the wheel and top off and just ride...

slick: where does your mind go during these rides? or, is it an emotional thing?

beibs: both. like i tried to imagine how tupac felt in moments when he was shot up, accused of rape, chased around by paps, attacked and criticized constantly when he really cared about his own ppl first, but everyone as well, he just showed it in a way behind a slogan like thug life that ppl associated with those who would snatch a purse. would rob a store at gunpoint. with a camera pointed right at them. would shoot up a neighborhood. in real life and repeatedly in movies ppl see. it makes ppl feel that tupac was cosigning that. i get in my car and go to a place in my mind where i try to see all my blessings ive earned. i go to a place where my heart has a chance to get away from record sale numbers or label demands. or even being mentally worn down by the same ol box of hotel rooms, studio, stage, doing press at radio or interviewed on camera. that looped enough is no different than kids on corners in their hood all day everyday trying to figure out how they will stay out of jail that night or alive or feed themselves and family. that's not an excuse to do it, but survival makes its own permission.

slick: are you afraid of commitment?

beibs: with a girl, idk. with how i want to live my life as an entertainer or offstage? sometimes, i do worry about some choices i want to make, but see how it affects ppl more than myself. i'm learning on the job and fast.

slick: do you have a culture being justin beiber?

beibs: my culture is putting smiles on faces. hope in heart and confidence. the clothes are important because ppl copy it. both sides care for their own selfish reasons. like kaepernick showing designs in his cut on air. nelly with his band-aid. grills. little gestures. whether it's liked and approved of or despised. it can piss certain ppl off. they see it as defiance. the trees are me dealing with stress without clinical meds. the argument is clear, i just don't care about it at my age. it's out of my hands, but ppl on both sides behind the scenes and around me want to shape the situation to appear a way and prove their points. it makes it hard for me to do what i really strive to and please everybody when they act pleased by little these days, no matter what i do. it makes you want to give less. try less. or even give up and go half-assed. it's a pandora's...no, rubex cube of bs. now if i take that air, those i sing for...why should they push themselves in their lives? why shouldn't they just put up a middle finger or both and give in to whatever they struggle with or against? live like that in everyway? it becomes a box i have to fight peacefully out of like bob marley for his ppl one side totally respects, the other could careless about when it isn't their views or collection of issues to worry about. it's crazy. enough to have the wino on the park bench committed. the one that has a culture neither side understands how they got and stay like that, regardless of help available.

slick: what does commitment mean to you?

beibs: it means i should have to be afraid of however i live my life at 19. as long as i'm doing my job, haven't killed...well, as i said i do see how wayne inking his face and full body has shaped culture beyond music. those that committed to that one day won't have his fortune to turn to should they struggle. they made commitments in that way that are lasting unless lasering them off gets cheaper, which i believe it will. new revenue stream. makeup is already on it.

slick: should change happen when you're committed to something?

beibs: change happens whether we want it to and see the need to or not. just life in motion creates a need to change what needs to so things work or get better and stay on the up and up. sadly, it takes us too long to change what should be, because we hate the idea of seeming to not know what to change or that we aren't good at committing to anything and seeing it through how we envisioned it to begin with. like america. like a team almost winning it all, say like indiana or okc. i would love to be around those practices, in their locker rooms and sidelines to watch the happenings when they started out the picture, changed and got somewhere, but need a few more to finish off a lot of hard work by the whole organization to get the trophy. instead of watching others, do it, get the changes right and celebrate in june. some changes make things worse. some cause ppl to abandon things. or, protest and disrupt it all. like obama and congress. i see that. they argue like teammates on a sideline in may and june. obama is kevin durant.

slick: do you ever think two sides and cultures will ever become more like it was one?

beibs: idk. some aspects of both sides lawful or not do not tolerate the other both ways. ppl talk like they do. they act and speak different. i think that is a big deal in this, too. examples or points get made in real time everyday. can it? we see one point made in a country of hundreds of millions, yes, it can. then, something happens like michael brown, hands up, killed and we say no, like a vote is being taken place over a bill proposal. so it is constitutional. each event. pos. or neg. it kinda leaves many of us frustrated in the middle like elections saying we don't know, but we hope so. the tension like a movie if the hero will make it or save the day. or, girl. or both. (laughs) we want a happy ending that is taking too long, so many lives and eras passing. some are tired of waiting for the happy ending like fans leaving before ray hits that shot to save miami's second ring. instead of cheers along biscayne boulevard, i would've had the whole city celebrate in silence. huh!!! a silent parade to celebrate greatness twice over.