Reflective Essay About Relationships

I struggle day to day with putting my feelings into words. I sit here on my own thinking of the next way that I can portray this hurt that is inside of me so that people can understand.

I 've never been great with words, until recently. Until someone taught me to write out what I am feeling. This technique was suggested to me because it helps to get your feelings out somewhere where they don 't eat away at you. I have always been one to hold my feelings in until they are so built up that I explode, ultimately ruining many friendships and, this year, a very important relationship.

Let me tell you about myself when it comes to relationships. I just don 't... I don 't do relationships. I watched my sister go through one of the hardest relationship of her life when I was 14, where he boyfriend abused her. Both mentally and physically. He isolated her away from everyone, even her family. He bought her nice things, but then he would guilt trip her into staying with him. Four years into their relationship, she found out that he had cheated on her with at least 6 other girls. Though she tried to leave, he continued to guilt trip her into staying, and the relationship ultimately screwed up her perspective of life, and her

I knew he did… but something about it all made me panic, and break up with him. I watched so many girls in my house getting engaged or getting a promise ring. I watched a lot of my friends who were in relationships with guys in Greek life get the letters of their boyfriend as a promise. Someone explained it to me in a way that made my heart melt… And I was worried that would never be me… After two years, I wanted that… And maybe a part of me panicked that I hadn’t gotten it yet… I can’t even tell you my thought process behind the break up, because I honestly don’t know. All I remember is feeling completely smothered… And I