Personal Reflection Essay - What Makes You Do You Feel Melancholy, Sadness, Loneliness Or Afraid?

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When do you feel melancholy, sadness, loneliness or afraid? Have you ever felt that way? Has anything caused these emotions to show? I have felt these emotions more than I can count. To feel melancholy was the start for me to feeling afraid. Sadness made me feel like I was the one who didn’t belong with anyone. Loneliness came when I wanted to cry out and tell people everything that has happened to me but couldn’t. Being afraid was a feeling I wished I could overcome or ignore; to put on a smile and say everything IS going to be OK. Have you ever sensed things that gave you the feeling, whether good or bad, to just disappear from the world? At times I wished I did disappear because of the events that happened to me. I wished to feel peace in times of need but my senses would lead me to go numb from seeing what I wanted to, smelling what needed to be smelt, tasting what is good, hearing what had to be heard, or feeling when I needed to; like my body would just shut down and become robotic. Have you ever had relationships that made you come back to reality like your friends, family (whether it is household or extended), boyfriends or girlfriends, neighbors or even lost yourselves in them? Mine woke me when I realized that I am not the only one suffering in this world. I forced myself to be active with my household family and friends, tried to be with my extended family when I could, tried to go out with my friends and boyfriends to keep myself from going back into the darkness I was in. I went to counseling to keep myself from drowning in my sorrows and self-pity. Which, from what I could recall at this time, my world flipped upside down for the second time. Have you ever felt like the world you knew got ripped out from under y... ... middle of paper ... ...ill breathing. Without any of the help I got from my counselors, family, and friends I would not be here. I would not know where I would be at and that is pretty scary if I actually did think about it more. I have some peace and am still working on getting more peace within myself. I guess you could say that, through the distractions and trials, I have found myself to be a little bit stronger every time I went through my memories and the impacts that have happened to me. I know there are more things to come. I will just need to tell myself that I can survive and keep telling myself positive things cause it’s not only me who suffers its everyone around me too. I know it will take a while for me to be thoroughly at peace with myself but with the support I have beside, behind, and with me I know I can get there. That’s how I have been lost in times and am where I am at.

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