Personal Narrative: My Loss Of Purpose

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I've been gone for so long that I almost forgot what this site looks like XD.
I'm sorry that I have not submitted anything lately, I just haven't had the time (or the "inspiration").
You see, I recently started college - I'm studying for an MCSD qualification (it's a software development qualification for those of you who don't know.) - and this course is so intense that all I've had time to do these days is eat and sleep in addition to studying (and a gaming session here and there :D).

College life is hard, but it feels good to actually be doing something with my life, unlike last year where I just sat around playing games. Last year, I felt lost and without purpose, I feel that this loss of purpose is what caused my inability to write anything meaningful or of any substantial quality that it might be called decent writing.

Recently (and this is the main reason I am writing this journal entry), I did some soul-searching to find the true reason why I haven't been able to write because I see my loss of purpose as a catalyst for it and not its root cause. I found that my inability to write comes from three places... A fear of rejection, writing from the wrong place and writing for the wrong reason.

I have an overwhelming fear of rejection, but that's mostly because of my ego and I just need to get over myself. XD …show more content…

You see, I am actually undeveloped in terms of emotional maturity in comparison to my intellectual maturity... Where I go wrong is I am trying to write from my personal experience when I haven't experienced much in my life (my emotional immaturity) when I should be writing from what I have seen other people go through (my intellectual maturity). After some quick analysis of my past submissions; most of my best poems came from writing from my intellectual faculty(unbeknownst to me at the

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