Personal Narrative: My In The Black Culture

I appreciated your quick reply, it was a surprise and needless to say very well received.

The reasons you stated for staying away from me are the exact stimuli nature instilled in each one of us, when unhampered by the chaos I spoke of, that drives us to epic new ideas and achievements.

The stimuli I speak of are INFATUATION and EUPHORIA, that feeling experienced after enjoying sex that leaves you drained, feeling wonderful and laughing. It's those feelings sustained in a healthy mental environment long enough, when used properly, that motivates us to achieve great things.

They are the untold stories (motivations) in the “Fairy Tales” the reason the Knight slays the dragon to win the young maidens favor or the young maidens uses her feminine wilds to attract the young Prince,

In the Black Culture the teachings are about voodoo, zombies and things that go bump in the night.

After they have scared us to death as children none of the Black Culture teachings have any redeeming values, no one lives happy ever after after a voodoo spell, nothing great happens if you kill a zombie or escape one, things that go bump in the night are just scary. It's all pain, punishment and scary and it doesn't stop there it goes on, money is the root of all evil, not to pursue worldly things, not to dwell on your appearance or how others see you, in other words don't be vain. In the Black Culture it's scorned upon to take credit for the good things you've achieved that credit always have to be give to someone else (a deity) and the rewards we are told to avoid trying to get in life we are only rewarded with after death, streets paved with gold, we'll live in one of the many mansions, the 12 gates each one made from a single pearl, hence “Pearly Gates”, which are the entrance into paradise after we die and go to

Heaven..

In all other progressive Cultures the child is taught they will be rewarded in life, yes while they are still alive, for being courageous and the females for being beautiful, feminine and inspiring to win the heart of their Prince.

Those are the Fairy Tales, providing adages that are the building blocks in a child's minds that lead them on to achieve great things in life from making toothpicks to spacecrafts and everything in between that they need and use and that we need and use as well as people throughout the world.

We'll never know the greatness we've missed achieving in our individual lives by not enjoying each others company and the magic from the INFATUATION and EUPHORIA we would have experienced from spending time together from time to time and what would've been created by each of us from the mindset created from that healthy environment.

My point, even though I gave a long descriptive explanation, is this your decision to stay away from me because we may enjoy the association and or even surrender to our urges to have sex is the intuitive response from and indoctrination that renders no value.

You tell me where would modern civilizations be if men and women avoid the very men and women that inspires them to achieve great things?

I try to express myself in a coherent fashion but the only way I know that I missed the mark is for you to ask me what did I mean by a particular statement because you didn't understand. When you say you stay away for your own safety I provided you a safe haven during your visit plus I would never do anything that would jeopardize your safety. The only thing I'm aware of that happens when we are together is the I enjoy your company and thought you shared that sentiment as well, but maybe I am oblivious to what happens when we are together if you have something else in mind that I'm not aware of.

You also mention you keep your distance from me for your own reasons and I have no idea what those reasons would be. As far as I know what happens if we are within inches of each other again I say if it's that we might have sex is what you are speaking of. To that I say. So? Sex between us would only happen if that was what we both wanted, as consenting adults we're old enough to make that type decision for ourselves, after all that's how we all got here and the pleasure insensitive is to make sure we would.

In the last two months four of my classmates have died, which really bring into focus tomorrow is not promised. So I ask myself what am I achieving by not talking to you or reestablishing a rapport with you when I enjoyed you and the time we spent together.

That's the reason I wrote you because it has been way too long since we communicated and I'm hoping you are also willing to once again communicate with me on a regular bases.