Personal Narrative: Merging Personality

Because of the fight between being introverted yet agreeable, I have developed a close minded personality. I dislike change, and I am afraid to try new things. This further explains why I would rather be at home in a familiar setting rather than out with a large group at an unfamiliar place. I do not know what to expect, thus new things are prone to happen. I resist new ideas from anything big or small. An example of all of these traits combined is my inability to drive in a new direction once I have been going that route, even if it may take way longer because of incoming traffic I will encounter. Although I have a GPS to get me though, I am afraid of ending up in the wrong area at the wrong time and not being able to get out of the situation

- at least I am familiar with the surroundings of my normal path.
To add on these traits, I am very conscientious. This takes part in my ability to not like change and being very self-dependant. I have grown up needing structure, so when I change from this, I get stressed out and break down. I have a specific schedule of events that I must follow in order at certain parts of the day. Some of these tasks involve paying attention to miniscule details that only I would notice are out of place. Although my parents and friends call me obsessive over this need to complete tasks in a specific order, it works for me and I will continue operating like this as when I stray from my way, I lose control of myself.
All of these personality traits determine my overall emotional stability. When following my personal need of structure, order, and neatness, my emotional stability is high. This continues as long as there isn’t an unexpected load of work or distraction from what I need to ultimately focus on. Once this structure is disrupted, however, I start to become upset easily causing my body to feel anxious and other abrupt changes in mood. Once this shift starts, it is hard for me to recover until I have time to fully recoup myself.
Learning about myself though different psychologist’s points of views allowed me to better understand myself. A better understanding of myself allowed me to be able to clearly understand my purpose in the world, and it allowed me to better understand my feelings. This allowed me to become aware of both my mental and physical state, and know when to seek help. A sound understanding of myself has saved me from experiencing countless hardships.