Personal Narrative: Living With Avoidant Personality Disorder

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It has been extremely difficult for me to be social and interact with people for many years. Every time I would try and talk to someone, I could feel my heart pounding rapidly and sweat dripping down my forehead. It was terrifying to think this would happen every time I talk to someone. Living with Avoidant Personality Disorder has been a living hell for me. I cannot keep a conversation with my own father without getting severe anxiety attacks. That is why my father has kept me locked away all these years.

I have been stuck inside this creepy old house for more than 20 years and felt ready to finally go out into the world again. To finally be able to show everyone that I was not the horrendous person they created in their minds. For the first time in forever, I felt normal again.

I have been kept inside this house for too long and thought meeting Jem, Scout, and Dill was the best way to get myself out there.

The kids are always trying to get me to come out of my house and I thought I owed it to them for me to come out. They are kids, they wouldn’t treat me like everyone else in town when they see me, or so i thought.

Once again I could see the kids walking toward my house. They were creeping onto the …show more content…

I tipped toed as quietly as I could, so the kids wouldnt't hear me coming.

I saw Jem kneeling very still trying to find me through the window. I went in to try and tap him on the shoulder so they could finally get to see me and get rid of their curiosity. Right as I reached I could hear Scout yell at Jem.

“He’s out to get you Jem!! Run!!!” said Scout and Dill in a worried voice.

“I’m going!” yelled Jem

I know that the only thing they saw was my shadow, but that was enough to scare them off.

Jem, Dill, and Scout ran as fast as their little legs could, back to where they came from. I had no intention of hurting them. All I wanted was for them to finally see me, after all that was what they

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