Personal Narrative: Joining A Sorority

I tried to have a normal life. I got into my dream school, Ellsworth University, I rushed a sorority, Kapa Zeta Beta, and like any other sorority sister I participated in going to the frat parties. I joined the sorority with my best friend, Sofia. We were roommates in our freshman year and we became best friends immediately. We were inseparable from working out together to helping each other study for exams. She wasn’t just my best friend; she was my sister from another mister.
I didn’t want to join a sorority, they were outdated and time consuming, time I didn’t have time to waste. I wanted to focus on my studies, I needed to focus on my studies. My scholarship depended on it and I refused to lose it. Against, all of my protests I rushed

the sorority with her. After a while, I started to enjoy myself. I got to meet a lot of different girls, that joined for the resume credit to scholarship opportunities to legacies. about 15 girls rushed and they all had a stake in the game and they all wanted to win. In the end 6 of us made it, I was actually excited that I made it. I never knew how much it meant to me, even more than Sofia ever knew.
When we got to the party, to the Alpha Theta house it looked amazing.

There were a lot of decorations with briefcase hanging near the doors, empty manila folders on the walls, the works the theme was Hoes and CEOs. The party looked amazing just from the front door. We were all greeted with hugs and alcoholic drinks as soon as we stepped in. the boys didn’t care if you were underage, if you were legally an adult, they were completely fine with it. as the night went on, the sisters drank more and more and more. The shots were endless; I could feel the vibrations from the loud music nonstop. Alex, Sofia’s boyfriend and president of the sorority, pulled me aside to hang out with his friends in the living room, along with his long time best friend Max. there were 5 or 6 of us circling the coffee table, taking shots of tequila, vodka, and anything else from an unknown

bottle.
I was four shots in when I started to feel dizzy, I knew it was time to call it a night. As I was getting up to look for the other girls, I could feel the room starting to spin. I tried hanging to the walls and furniture as I looked around, it felt like I was looking around for hours. I couldn’t take the dizziness anymore; I didn’t feel safe enough to walk to the house. I found Alex talking to Max, both of them continuing to drink. as I approached Alex I continued to hold my head with my right hand. I asked Alex if I could lay down in his room until I felt better, gave me the directions to where his room was, at the end of the hall, the last door on the left. I tried walking up the stairs, the dizziness getting much worse. When I got to the top of the stares I held on to the wall for support. I finally made it to his room, continuing to stumble I plopped on the bed.
As I was falling asleep, I heard the door open. I ignored the sound and tried to fall asleep again. A few minutes passed and I woke up with a weight on top of me, I kept my eyes closed. I knew it then it was a someone who was on top of me. the unknown person began to talk, I recognized the voice immediately, it was Alex. I opened my eyes, I asked Alex what he was doing, but he ignored me. he began to kiss my neck as I struggled to get up from his bed. I asked him to stop, I tried to scream, but everything came out as a whisper.
I kept struggling trying to get up, but Alex began to unbutton his belt.

He ran his hand up my skirt and began to pull my panties down. That’s when everything froze, I couldn’t move, scream, I was stuck. It felt like an eternity had just gone by. When he was finished, he rolled over and laid on his stomach, fast asleep. Still in shock, I started to pick up my shoes and cell phone. The party came to an end as I walked out of his room, I closed the door. And I started walking without looking back. I was in a catatonic state; I don’t remember how I got back to the house. I went straight to my room and to the shower. The water was burning hot, turning my skin bright red. I scrubbed every in of my body, wanting anything that was left of him annihilated from me. as I stepped out of the shower, I put pyjamas on and went straight to my bed. I cried until I exhausted myself to

sleep.
I knew the girl that I once was, was now gone, I had a darkness growing that started to consume me. All I wanted to do was lay in bed, I avoided everyone in the house, especially Sofia. I couldn’t face her, not now, not ever. I felt like I betrayed her in so many ways, I didn’t know how to talk to her about it. I have never kept a secret from her, but I truly didn’t know what to do now.