My Relationship-Personal Narrative

The closure of a tumultuous, long-term relationship helped shape me as a writer, because I realized that I hadn’t even been on my own long enough to know what I wanted or who I was. I fell in love with eloquent and inspirational words, and I began journaling to express myself. I found that scribbling down my thoughts helped mold me into a better writer each time I did so.

Immediately following the crumbling of what I thought was my strongest relationship, my anxiety got the best of me and my mind became my own worst enemy. I had been writing in a journal for my boyfriend a few times a week, and when that was over, I sorely missed having a way to express myself. I feared that without the motivation of someone to write for, however, that I wouldn’t have anything to say. I began writing to God, hoping that pouring out my thoughts and prayers onto paper would ease my mind. Because of my time spent journaling, my relationship

I began to write not only in my prayer journal, but also in a personal book solely for myself. I noticed that my panic attacks disappeared almost completely, and I worried much less frequently than when I had been dependent on another person. I stopped living in the past and searching for romantic relationships, and instead I enjoyed the present with my family and friends. Eventually, the journal entries transformed from miserable and pleading to optimistic and content, and I watched my writing style evolve with them.

I soon fell in love with beautiful words, and authors such as F. Scott Fitzgerald became my inspiration. I “pinned” quote after quote of Fitzgerald’s timeless writing, and C.S. Lewis, along with so many others, became a source of inspiration for me as well. I decided that with whatever pieces I created, I wanted to inspire people and bewitch them with moving words, like these authors had done to