Monologue From The Kite Runner

I want to write you a letter, because I know where you are. You are here. And … you are in heaven with your lovely people and no more worries, and watching me from the sky. I hope, you met with my mother, Hassan, and other people there.
I want to say, you were the best father in the world. You devoted your life to me. I never forget that my graduation evening, what you did for me! You took me to a bar from the restaurant and you were happier than me that night. You had a party with other people at the bar, and I drove to home. When I parked the car, you said me “Keep driving to end of the block”. When I asked Why! you said “Just go”. You gave me old model Ford and said “You will need it to go to college”. I was very happy that time and my eyes were tearing over and I was very happy. Even you did not forget to test the brakes, the turn signals, and the radio. At the time, I wanted you to hug and how much I appreciated all that you did for me. I really want to say “thank you” again.

But I had only you in my life, no mother. I remember that Sunday, you were on the ground and shaking your arms and legs, I cried. When I heard about you have brain cancer, I was no idea and spent night sitting next to your bed. Even, you were sick, you did not forget me and asked Khanum Taheri’s daughter Soraya. I was happy about our marriage and you made me very huge wedding. But short after, I lost you, Baba and I responsible everything by myself.
Afterwards I visited Rahim Khan in Pakistan, I found about Hassan.

I did not believe and shocked, and screamed to him. I realized, You and Hassan were more alike. If you were alive, I would ask How could you have lied to Hassan and me all those years? Why did you always say Hassan name? When I knew about Hassan was my half-brother, the questions kept coming at me. if I knew him earlier. Where would be he? Was he living in America? and Was he still alive? I was not really good son too, because I did bad things to Hassan. You were nice to Hassan and I was very jealous and I was too hard on Hassan. I want to say everything here. When Hassan raped, I did not protect him and just run away. Also, when I asked you change the servants, you were angry to me. so I lied to you Hassan stolen my watch, which was not true. Because I wanted him to leave the house. I am very embarrassed now, what I did to him. Now, I can do only one thing that is find a Sohrab, Hasssan’s boy, take care of

him.
I am sorry for everything Dad, I wish Dad Baba, Hassan, and his wife Farzana were here to help me to find Sohrab. I promise to my dad, I will find my nieces and grow him good man.

Your son always
Amir Jan.