Metathesiophobia Fear Of Change

Metathesiophobia fear of change, for me was common. What used to and can still get to me was change happening. This fear would make me frustrated and uncooperative sometimes. The thought of meeting new people and embarrassing myself for some unknown reason or even sitting in a different place for lunch was a little nerve racking. I became a little too careful about what how I should handle certain things. Even though it would frighten me, I would still try to do it. Afterwards, I would feel so much better that it was done and over with, but my nerves would still be on the fringe. With the support of my family and trying new things, my fear won't overcome me.
This fear used to be abhorrent for me. My friends would even joke about the things I wouldn't. Even then they still didn't understand the reason why I wouldn't want to try new things. One specific thing they would joke about with me would be about how would always decline about where we would eat lunch and it would end up with me not wanting then getting used to that new place, eventually enjoying the new place. With them always wanting to try new things it started to grow on me more. I would always like try new things, but the amount of convincing it would take to actually to do it,

would take a toll on me.
The one thing that probably helped me was when I joined the swim team my freshman year.

The first practice was at 5 a.m. and the night before I couldn't sleep. My mind would keep wondering what would happen, was I supposed to be wearing my bathing suit, what were my teammates going to be like. When it came time to go to practice I was shaking the whole way. Soon after I learned that my fears should have not been focused on such silly things now. If anything swim really helped me face them head on. With so much change going with swim I got used to this fear. My family and friends were also a great succor. Even though they probably didn't know that it was helping me. I'm very grateful to my father supporting anything I wanted to

do.
Change still scares and sometimes makes me hesitant to do certain things but it hasn't stopped me from trying. My family and friends have been great help, with there support my fear is easier to control and not worry. With me being so dedicated to trying my hardest I won't give up. I'm ready to face my fears. I'm ready to accept that even though it makes me scared that I still have to keep on going. I'm strong enough to not let it control me.