Locus Of Control Essay

When people learn the deeper meaning of something, it is usually about a novel or Shakespeare; it is not usually about themselves. I recently learned some things about myself that shook me up and spit me out. While reading the about the locus of control, I learned that I have both an internal and external locus of control. However, after reading “Invictus,” by William Ernest Henley, I realized I do not want to be a person who blames others for my failures. I need to better myself to let things go and move on with my life. “Invictus” could have given me strength in dark times and help me to be a person with a more internal locus of control.

First, I am a person with an equal internal and external locus of control. As much as I want to see myself a good person, I do blame others. When I am in a situation that does not benefit me, I have the tendency to tell myself it is someone else’s fault. I don’t stop to think that maybe I could have tried harder or that I am to blame. Part of me always wondered why I kept doing this; I realized why when I read the locus of control. In other situations, though, I blamed myself. I could have tried harder, or knew I was simply not the best. Reading “Invictus” cemented the idea that if I change my

Before my parents divorced, I was a very anxious and self-doubting person. My father may have been somewhat attentive while I was growing up, but he got more and more overbearing until it was emotional abuse. He would call my sister and I mean names and tell us we were failures. He also was always putting my mother down in front of us. “Invictus” could have helped me a lot through this; I would have been a different person. The last two lines of the poem have changed my outlook on life significantly, especially where my father is concerned. It is true that he has scarred me emotionally, but “I am the captain of my soul” (Henley), and God is the master of my