Free Narrative Essays - Still Undecided personal narrative essays

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Still Undecided I will graduate at the end of next semester. I do not know where I want to go to school next year or what I want to major in. Sometimes I wonder if I want to go to school at all. The problem is not that I have had all these decisions thrown at me suddenly or unexpectedly, it is that I have put off making them for four years now. I know that I can do anything that I want to, that I have the abiliy to successfully achieve anything I focus on. Is this egotism part of my problem? Then there is the fear I have of making the wrong decision. What if I pick a school or major that I end up hating or having no interest in at all after I get there? Is that a contradiction to my last paragraph? I realize that I always have the oppotunity to change what I do not like, but there is also that fear of time and money wasted. I feel I need the change of scenery that such an investment would bring, but what if I am dead one year from now. Will I have wasted my present life worrying about how happy and successful I can make my future? As you can tell I am overflowing with worries and questions. In a way I almost wish I had the identity staus of forclosure pushed on me so that my future is already planned for me and I could focus on one day at a time. Then my egotism strikes again and I think to myself "I can go farther than that." "Do not take the easy way out." The decisions I have to make are helping to build character., I know, I know. I need to be in the identity staus of identity achievement. To get there I must put more faith into my decision making abilities and ultimately into my decisions. I need to act now and worry later, change what I do not like in my life, and focus on what I do like. I need to keep in mind that no one can bring me happiness but myself and finally, I need to remember that my already developed skills, as basic as they may be, my family, and my friends will be there as a life vest to keep me afloat in even the most rapid of rivers of . life. I just need to make myself jump in.

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