Eassy About Love

Some people say love is a beautiful thing but love to me has been many things. I have been in love 4 times in my life and at 3 of those I failed at it miserably. Love hurt me and caused me so much pain and heart ache but love also brought me so much joy and happiness. Love is a double edge sword. Sometimes it takes a few mistakes in life to get something right and with love it look me 4. It was a long and bumpy road. It took me 21 years of being with Mr. Wrong, 1 divorce and 3 kids but I finally found the love that’s meant for me. I finally found my happily ever after.

• I had always been a hopeless romantic, since I was about nine years old. I believed people could find a real Cinderella love story. I'd lay around in bed daydreaming for

I knew if they found anything stolen he'd be in trouble, so I hid the items and lied to the cops. All to protect him from getting arrested. All I did was make matters worse because then we were both in trouble. Getting sentenced to jail time wasn’t expected. We were shocked and not ready to handle being tore apart again, even though he said he'd wait forever.. I was in jail for 29 months all together but my husband was only around for the first 6 weeks ( Yes, 6 weeks). He cheated on me and left me for a girl he met at work. By the time I got out of jail he had divorced me , got engaged and had a 3 month old Son. My heart felt more than just broke that time. It felt as if it were shattered. That all changed my outlook on love. I no longer believed in it and thought love now was just a myth , a fantasy, some crazy illusion. I was not the loving caring person I once used to be. I was now cold hearted and mean. I felt lost and empty inside. I was miserable all the time and I began to live recklessly by drinking and abusing my prescription medication to pain pills. I no longer cared if I lived or died. I hated everything about life and most everyone in

Is that even possible? I don’t know but that day I felt love in such a deep and powerful way, a way I had never felt before. It was a moment in time I’ll always remember. Our friendship really did catch fire that day and our love has been burning hot and bright ever since. Chris is not a perfect guy and I am not a perfect woman. We have problems just like everyone else in life but the love we have together is really special. Our love feels magical. It’s a unconditional type of love like a parent has for their child turned another way. Chris is my best friend ,my biggest supporter, my biggest fan, my protector and the list goes on and on. When my emotional issues come out, he just loves me a little harder and hugs me a little tighter. He is my Noah. Finally I had found my Noah. I’ve been wrong so many times before, you may ask how I know I'm not wrong this time and my answer would be " I don’t know this time, but my heart knows and I’m following it. I know I am where I am meant to be. I had gave up on love and hadn’t believed in it for years when god showed me a love that was more than I ever imagined it ever to be. The day he asked me to marry him on that mountain was one of the happiest days of my life. I felt complete. “Thank you for giving me my fairy tale ending,” I whispered to God as we sat there on that mountain watching the sun set, and thankful I'll always