College Admissions Essay: Inescapable Loneliness

Inescapable Loneliness
Loneliness is a terrifying feeling that never escapes our lives. When I was younger, my largest fear in life was that I would make no friends and would be lonely. As I grew older, the fear shifted to dying alone. Now that I take steps back to look at this I realized everything I have missed, everything I have misunderstood. I am finally strong enough to understand that loneliness is inescapable, it lives with you all through your life. Life is a lonely place, where even if you are lucky enough to have people around you, all you have to look forward to is losing them either through going separate ways or death.
At a young age, I was hinted about the loneliness I will face in the future. My first two years of life were full of naps in a empty room and family being the only people we know. At the age of three and four my sisters were all in school, they would meet people and go out,

I would start to become close with each of the people but at some point I would catch them spreading rumors about me, or accusing me of something. Every single person that at first was holding me together had managed to take that piece of me that they held and threw it away. And again I stand alone in a world that is so damaging.
Being alone those first couple weeks of school in an unfamiliar place, was terrifying. Each and every moment walking through those halls or sitting in the chair with a room full of strangers we lonely. I managed to make one singular friend who has lead me to meet more people than i ever thought i would. These past few months we have had opposing work schedules, we would never talk outside of school which has started us to lead in different direction.
I have just recently been able to take a stand on this world, understanding the loneliness that I have, am and will