1.08 Creative Writing

It is 6:25 in the morning.

The outside is still pitch black; there is no hint of sunlight coming through the curtain. It will be hours before sunrise. I can barely see my fingers in front of my face. Since it is middle of January, it is freezing outside, but it is so warm in my bed. The sheets are so cozy, the pillows are so soft and not even one single cell of my body wants to leave. I can only smell the cold air on my face. The entire world is almost silent; the only sounds are the sonata that has been playing for five minutes on my phone, and the deep breathing of my roommate who is still miraculously sleeping.

I was confused when the alarm gradually woke me up. I started to self-questioning:
“Why is the music playing right now?”
“Am I hallucinating?”
“Is that my phone?”
“Oh, what time is it now?” And I suddenly realized that I have created this terrible situation myself. It is the fourth day of my twenty-one-day challenge, which means that I have to get up at 6:30 a.m. to study. My entire body is struggling,

First I feel stubborn. I was not sure whether I should get up to study or just turn off the alarm as I have done for the previous three days. Then I feel disappointed in myself, and I decide that I do not want to let myself down today. I remind myself that I do not want to have to make up any excuses about why I have failed again. My initial disappointment in myself this morning evoked my memory of the previous three mornings. I felt guilty and angry about the poor self-control and laziness, which led to my failure to achieve my task until now. However, I am determined now. If I cannot even achieve this tiny little task, how would I ever be able to complete my goal of becoming a CEO at Wall Street in the future? More realistically, how would I be able to finish even one day of my twenty-one-day challenge? I could not respect myself if I continued failing the goal that I set