Vyvian Monologue

Vyvian,

I was reading a book today and I saw two quotes that instantly reminded me of you; the book that I was reading is about a girl who has leukemia.
I know that you might think that it's a bit obscure for me to be comparing you to a girl who is battling leukemia, but I'm going to try to transmit an important message: you don't have to pretend that you're okay and it's fine to show your emotions.

"I admire a lot of things about you. I admire how smart you are, how perceptive, and observant. What I'm just really in awe of is your patience. If it was me, I would be angry, miserable, hurtful, and just terrible to be around. You've been so strong throughout and so patient, even when things aren't going right, and I'm in awe of that. And you've made me feel blessed."

I remember how horrible it felt to sit alone at school, while everyone else had someone next to them.
It seemed like I was invisible, like I wasn't even supposed to be there.
I felt lonely because I would spend each school day

I felt sick to my stomach and angry when you told me about what happened.
How can someone mistreat a beautiful soul who puts nothing but greatness into the world?
How can someone do such a terrible thing to an amazing girl who is selfless?
How can someone harm a girl who is modest when it comes to talking about herself?

I will never be able to answer these questions; these questions haunt me.
There are disgraceful people in this world and I'm sorry that you had to encounter two of them at once.
I feel so much pain for you.
You have to feel something.
Please admit that you feel confused, sad, resentful.
Admit that you are feeling something unpleasant.
Be honest about how you feel.